[ 8:53 PM ]
DIAN. IQAH. STELLA. FATIN. KAUSHALYA. A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not so bad. ~Arnold H. GlasgowYesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in the middle we became the best of friends. ~Author UnknownA friend knows the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails. ~Donna RobertsFriendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things. ~Author UnknownSoul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you. ~Author UnknownIf you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. ~Author UnknownA friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out. ~Grace PulpitThere are big ships and small ships. But the best ship of all is friendship. ~Author UnknownThe best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. ~Author UnknownA true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked. ~Author UnknownFriends are kisses blown to us by angels. ~Author UnknownIt is the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter. ~Marlene DietrichA true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart. ~Author UnknownWhat is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies. ~Aristotle
Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh!" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you." ~A.A. MilneSome people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia WeednLots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. ~Oprah WinfreyA good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world. ~Lois WyseA friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself. ~Frances Ward WellerA friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should. ~Author UnknownYou can always tell a real friend: when you've made a fool of yourself he doesn't feel you've done a permanent job. ~Laurence J. PeterA friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be. ~Douglas Pagels
[ 5:35 PM ]
BACKTRACKING MY PAST BLOGS.
AND I REALISED TO MANY SWEET MEMORIES I HAD FORGOTTEN.
I WONDER IF LIFE IS GOING TO BE THE SAME AGAIN IN THE FUTURE.
COZ ALL I WANT IS A NEW LIFE.
A LIFE THAT I WOULD NEVER EVER REGRET AGAIN.
[ 11:08 PM ]
my stomach is so painful that i could barely walk.
its not stomach actually, it waaaas the right side of my body?
aaaaaah i tink it was my kidney side.
what the heaven, i fail my bio. and i don't give a damn k.
wateva it is, im suffering.
went to the doctor. mama and ayah take a day off today!
woo hoo! just to bring me see doctor. HAHA.
okaaay so the doctor check my stomach.
press here press there.
then she give one small bottle.
wants to do a urine test and PREGNANCY TEST???!!
and she was asking me if i was sexually active???!!
what the heaven..
hahaha. so the urine in the toilet was embarrassing.
mama was so angry wit me.
i urine. put the bottle under...
but wrong side! blue-dy heaven! hahaha.
and myv urine didn't go IN the bottle lar.
and i have to drink 10 cups of water so that i could urine again.
the results were ok. IM NOT PREGNANT! yay! hahaa.
mama, stop it with the getting pregnant with who and all ehh.
doctor gave medicine. if still pain, need to go hospital.
to check for appendix. oh shit.
hope its not. ):
went shopping with mama after that.
mama buy 123456789 clothes.
and i just bought one dress. ): humph.
[ 6:55 PM ]
friday.
didn't go for art(:
went to kfc with stella, kau, fatin and iqah.
then me, stella and kau head to bugis.
need to buy some clothes.
fatin can't go coz eka won't allow. i tink soo..
iqah got tuition.
went to bugis street and see the clothes.
some are nice but didn't buy anything.
then walk to this fashion store. boring.
so just bought one shorts. haha.
saturday.
my rebonding day! oh wow.
haha. so semangat meet kau.
fatin was not feeling well.
stella aunty dun allow.
iqah, tuition.
so its just me and kau.
haha.
went to the shop.
then had to wait 123456789 hours for my turn.
my number was 57???!!!!
then suddenly kau pyscho me.
say my hair ok waaaat.
den can just buy at shop the iron thing.
so we actually ran away from the shop.
and went window-shopping.
bought two sleeveless shirts. (: grey and greeeeeen.
haha. eat mac. crowdes so we ta-paw and went under the block.
met narein in mac!! and guess wat...
he used to like kau and he used to chat with me in msn!
omg. hahahhahaa. funny siol.
den after eating. went home. take mrt.
ohh my god. i promised neva in my life to take mrt without any company!
ergggh. once i was lost and end up in farrer park?!
and today was lost again. but didn't end up anywhere else lar.
hahah. came out from douby ghaut station.
den wanted to cry coz dunno where to go.
called kau..take the escalator..walk straight..
eh diaaaan, no wrong.. huh? walk up..den?
diaaan, walk up the escalator den take another one.
huh? kauuuu...how??!!!!
hahahahah. long story baybeh.
hahahahaha. and yeah. finally reached bishan.
&& i didn't do rebonding. wat the helll....
[ 7:21 PM ]
first of all, THANK YOU to all of my friends. best friends.
thanks for the support.
thanks for the comfort.
thanks for the advise.
thanks for everything.
early in the morning, bella promise to msg me which im suppose to forward to him.
but i didn't. however, stella edit the msg a lil bit and send the msg to him.
i told her im not gonna see anything and i will only know what's the result.
so yeah...kau, stella and fatin msg him.
and i was often being chased away by them coz they don't wanna me see the msg.
curious, yes.
good thing no art class. so spent time in the library.
around 4++ like that, kau says that they wanna tok to me.
afraid, yes.
plan to meet fatin at staircase at 5.30.
more afraid, yes.
before reaching, stella and kau keep on saying that they will be there for me no matter wat.
so of course i know what would happen riiite.
good acting you both. haha.
so i expected wat they going to say and wat the msg would be.
i tot i was ready for it and i would not cry.
ready, no.
i cried. and stella keep on advising me. kau and fatin tooooo(:
eka actually was straightforward and say it was a bad news. haha.
and i cried in front of eka! paisehx....
its so embarrasing to cry. but i cried anyway.
wanna let out wat i feel but i can't. i just can't.
stella actually take the same bus as me just to cheer me up.
thanks dear. and i really appreciate ur advise.
eat alot. sleep early. rmbr everything about him tonight and forget bout it tmr.
hmm..i will get over it. maybe not now but i will.
forget him, no.
he's the first person who can make me forget choc almond.
and you're asking me to forget him? no, i won't.
its my fault. yeah, its my fault.
maybe its true, we should have known each other better.
i didn't expect that i would make a mistake again after 3 years...
hmm...
stella, yeah i admit. i did like choc almond more than him.
3 years dear, who can forget it easily.
but that doesn't mean i put him aside.
and i don't accept him bcoz im desperate to forget choc almond.
if i do, i should have done last tyme.
its something about him. you guys dunno.
im sorry for telling u all this. but its true.
and maybe you all are right, im blind by his everything.
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hurt, yes.
sad, yes.
angry, yes.
give up, ...........
[ 7:31 PM ]
its over between us. boohooohhooo. uweheheheheeek. sobsobsob.
i don't wanna end this relationship.
he misunderstood it! but wat am i gonna saaaaaaaay.
help me. my heart is hurting. god.
why love hurt so much?????!!!!!!!
mama don't know bout this. if she noe we broke up...........
............ ):
got 6 hours detention just because didn't attend bio remedial. wat the ....
haix. i don't give a damn olredi lar.
moaning all day today. tried my best to laugh. thanks to all those who tried to cheer me up(:
[ 7:28 PM ]
Dah lama tak berjumpa
Rindu rasa hati
Inginku bertemu denganmu
Biarpun hati ini
Menyatakan benci
Namun hakikat
Kau masihku sayang
Mengapa kita berjumpa
Dan mengapa kita bercinta
Niat hatiku nak kekal lama
Hidup denganmu wahai kasih
Niat hatiku tak nak berpisah
Apakan daya jodoh tiada
Kenangan demi kenangan
Menjelma diingatan
Sukarnya melupakan dirimu
Rintihan demi rintihan
Menyeksakan hidupku
Aku derita... keranamu
Oh kekasih
Sungguh tidakku sangka
Akhirnya begini
Sebuah ikatan asmara
Engkau yang aku sayang
Yang aku kasihi
Mungkinkah bersatu kembali
[ 11:01 PM ]
didn't go bio remedial.
coz need to go to my mum's place and do something.
after work, went to popular bookstore to buy my ss txtbook.
damn, its lost.
then, while walking around the tpy central..
asked mama if i can borrow $150 fos something.
she asked for what..and i said it was a surprised.
i tot confirm2 she won't give, coz its too much kaaaan.
but, she actually draw the money and just gave it to me!
and she says no need to return back.
like wtf, why ehh my parents suddenly turn into a wonderful angel..
where's my REAL parents???!!!
but who cares, i love my NEWLY FORMED parents.
hahahahahaa.
okay, im feeling rapturous. woo hoo!
[ 9:08 PM ]
haha.
hello.
DIAN FARHANA SAYAAAAAANG AWAN (:
okay done(:
[ 10:17 PM ]
woke up at 10.19 wen roy msg me.
then stare at the time thinking.
den i rmbr.....got POA CLASSSSSS!!!!!!
arghhhhh. haha.
well, wat to do. cannot turn back time.
so, pray hard mrs lai is not angry.
gosh, how could i forget that.
and surprisingly, riduan and stella actually came for the class!!
what the hell, those two idiots actually came and im the goody-two-shoes didn't.
well, not so goody-two-shoes laaaar..but stilllll...compare to them..
hahahaha.
msg him today... he's not angry anymore.
yay! pheww..like finally.
but dunno lar eh...maybe thats what he says but his heart is diff.
pray hard its not. ((:
tmr sunday. and tmr tmr monday. and tmr tmr tmr tuesday.
what the hell, i stop now.
[ 2:03 AM ]
just finished uploading pics in frenster.
like finally...haha.
so the concert was fun. extremely a blast.
unexpected. we tot it would be those boring2 kind of concert.
and we had feelings that only a lil ppl came.
but we were wrong. alot of ppl came with frens from outside sch.
some even wants to buy tickets lar. gosh.
the seats were not enough. so alot of ppl had to stand and watch the concert.
i, stella, kau, and hira were busy outside. inviting the visitors.
chop2 the hand and tear the ticket. hahah.
then after tht watch some of the concert.
awesome, i swear. (:
well before the concert start..camwhore in the toilet.
pictures are uploaded in frenster. feel free to see okay.
then after the concert ended, tot we could go home.
but were told that we had to clean the hall.
arranged the chairs. choc almond came(: went up to kaushalya...):
asked if we need help. and kaushalya say carry the chairs.
hahahaha. how dare seyy bully him.
omg, he look so cuuuuute.
ehh..ehh..omg..pfft..im not supposed to say that..
ergghh...wqytesaiofuckeurtn.
overall i had fun lar yeah. i don't regret of going to it.
it cheers me up actually..and i could forget my sadness in that moment. (:
[ 2:16 PM ]
thanks to FATIN. STELLA. KAUSHALYA. for being there for me.
i dunno wat i would do without you guys.
and i wanna all the readers to be the witnessed of wat im going to say.
if one day i were to break up with awan, i promise..
i won't be into relationship ANYMORE.
i would just let mama matchmaking me. i don't care olredi.
my heart won't accept anyone till i really really am sure that he's the one for me.
to awan, sorry if im being a bad girlfren.
wateva is ur choices, i will accept it k.
haix.
[ 2:06 PM ]
just a quick blog as i had to rushed.
today in the morning went to sch with gloomy face.
should be happy rite..got new phone.
buuuuut personal problems. haix.
lucky got kaushalya, fatin and stella helping me.
forced me to msg him early in the morning.
well, regret of messaging? 50-50.
he like don't want to layan like that.
felt like giving up. i mean eh seriously no point kn we together abeh dier nk marah2.
have to wait till how long seyy den he cool down. erggh.
my fault? yeah i guess so. but izit too big for me to be unforgiven?
im stressed. but as fatin said, i cannot give up.
sobsobsob. felt like crying. was suppose to meet him today.
and becoz of him being angry, its canceled.
why eh relationship everytime like this?
should i regret having it in the first place? yeah i should maybe.
i dunno wat i should do. i did everything seyy. ):
and fatin, you promised me a chocolate if i msg him.
???? hahah. where sia the choc? in ur stomach olredi ehh?
hahahah.
would be going to sch concert soon. was sabotaged by stella. told you rite?
haha. didn't have mood to go.. seriously im not laughing much today like always.
pity fatin and iqah cannot go. if not, more funner(:
hehe.
kk. will update bout the concert wen i came back k.
[ 10:36 PM ]
okay. i dunno wats been going on.
things seems to happen the way i want to.
today ayah suddenly call me say later we will be buying new phone for me.
den mama kol say the same thing. she say ayah wanna buy for me.
i was so damn happy lar. hahaa.
den in car, ayah ask wat model i want.
action malu2 ar..say i dunno. haha.
once reach starhub shop. ayah say go and choose.
walk around and see see.
ayah say buy this buy that. wonder why he so kind....
mama and farah so jealous. the face all so angry. haha.
den ask alot of model. den i ask which is the best model.
the guy recommend one model. sony ericsson w960.
bought that in cash(: $368. omg ayah so kind.
sayang ayah(:
den den ayah try to pujok mama and farah.
give mama $500 for shopping. and farah $100.
what's up with that?? and me..none.
coz i got that bloody new hp. wth.
but nvm..im still happy. yay! hahahaah.
tmr going to the concert. stella sabo me! ergghh.
had to go to the concert for nothing.
meeting him tmr. but dunno if confirm anot.
(: okay done.
[ 12:26 AM ]
told her the truth in the library just now.
she says its okay.
but i've known her for..8 years?
i know her reactions. i know her feelings.
she's sad. i know it from her voice.
she may be happy for me. she may say she's not angry.
but she's sad. and i can feel it.
i felt guilty wen the time she said...
she's used to being lonely. even in class she's lonely.
and its her fate to be alone.
i was speechless.
lucky stella was there. hold her hand while toking to ....
and wen she said..that she's the only one who is single..
i felt so guilty. padahal before that.. we were toking about me and her being single.
before she found out the truth.
haix. life. must it be this complicated?
[ 8:20 PM ]
okay today no art class.
so spent my time in the library..
that bloody gate was closed on wed. cca day..
gossiping. friendster. blogs.
didn't manage to blog juz now coz busy playing friendster.
force ppl to send comments. hahaha.
well my day was not so bad and of course not too good.
morning was lucky. (: was so happy. sory eliza.
its just not ur day i guess (; haha.
didn't do my eng hw. and i borrowed from ya zhen.
wanted to do during recess but forgotten.
and do it during bio. was caught.
bloody noobeh. yesterday get caught for using hp. den today hw.
den she "nyeh nyeh nyeh" all the way. fuck.
after lesson asked her for my hw back.
beg her since she didn't give. den i tell her at least give ya zhen's paper back, keep mine.
and she did. then she nyeh nyeh nyeh again. walked out of the classroom.
was damn furious seyy. i noe its my fault. but hellooooooooooo, i got noting to do wat in class.
i was waiting for the ppl finish writing the ans. and dun anyhow accused me of not doing work ok!
you bloody .... ergghh. ppl do work still want to nyeh nyeh nyeh all the way.
and anyhow accused ppl copy ans. fuck ar. go change specs can?
how can student enjoy studying wen they hate their teachers?! please be nice lar.
and to say that last tyme you used to be a model and gangster all. so imp for bio izit?!
think we would be proud of you izit.. please lar.
want ppl to pay attention and enjoy ur lesson, make a change lar.
its not always students who have to play the part you know. damn.
[ 4:31 PM ]
[ 4:15 PM ]
gosh. i feel so guilty.
i dunno how to tell her the real situations.
im afraid that everything would change.
and our friendship is not going to be the same anymore.
i admit its entirely my fault.
in the first place, i should not have told her about it.
and now..she's..erghhh!!!!
whyyyyyyy? god. please help me.
dear best friend,
i know its my fault.
and i should have told you today or even yesterday.
but im scared you would be sad. and you might not treat me the same again.
i don't want you to be sad. i know its the first time you actually like someone.
and i admit i sort of betrayed you. not sort of..i AM a betrayer.
best friend..i hope you understand my feelings. please dun ruin this friendship okay?
i wish i could tell her this face to face. unfortunately, im only brave enough to tell her in here.
i know she won't read it. i hope she does. eeeeeeeek. if she were not able to accept the fact.. i
promise with all my heart that i would let him go. best friends are more important to me.
and i should not be selfish. best friend, for the last time...im sorry. ):
[ 10:08 AM ]
070708. 1 am sharp.
and we are oficially together.
hahahaah.
long story lar oi. hahahaha.
well, meeting him later. (:
was suppose to work today.
but beg mama and she says ok. haha.
and she says he must buy food for her den she will "restu" hubungan kami.
like whatever!!!! hahahaha.
and mama, stop disturbing him about anak menantu ni sumer eh.
dulu dian suker ..... mama tk ckp aper2 plak. humph.
well, gtg now. chalobeteh evryone.
have fun. weeeeeee. (:
[ 5:12 PM ]
wake up early in the morning to eat breakfast in mac(:
wooooo. hot pancakes+sausages with iced milo.
hahaha.
went shopping to buy a few new shorts for ayah.
then went tampines to service the car.
had to wait for 123456789 hours for our turn.
while waiting..went to the nearest kopitiam.
had our second rounds(:
half-boiled eggs. kaya toast. egg prata. soya bean.
then went back to the place and still had to wait.
lucky there's mags and newspaper to entertain us.
read berita harian and found out that there's a delicious rendang puff sold in tampines.
lucky day i guess. (:
went there after servicing our car.
had our THIRD rounds. woohoooh.
then went pasar to buy fish and stuffs.
our stomachs was bloating and i tot it was over.
but stopped buy geylang to buy things.
tot of having our FOURTH round. but my stomach cannot take it olredi.
so just had drinks. (:
den headed home.
okay so we had like 1000000000 varieties of food in a few hours.
delicious. and im fat ):
[ 4:34 PM ]
ohh yeah.
yesterday went to ibu house to take some durians.
they got it free from somewhere and it was too much for them.
met kak fifi there. (:
after eating, we decided to go home.
and guess wat? while driving..we saw fireworks.
OMG. IT WAS SO NEAR AND IT SEEMS NEVER ENDING!!!!.
ayah stopped the car by the road.
well, it was not just us..there are a long stretch of cars parked there to take videos.
i and mama was damn kecoh.
"dian! dian! cepat amek handphone!!!!.."
"maner? maner?"
"cepat! cepat! nanti dah abes!!!! use ur handphone lar!!!"
"video eh??"
"video lar. abeh aper??"
LOL. LOL. LOL. hahahahahaha.
well. managed to take videos of the fireworks.
beautiful. (:
[ 2:07 PM ]
perfect frens. perfect family. almost perfect lifes.
what more could i ask for?
perfect brains. yerp thats what i want.
today was such a boring day.
surfing the internet..reading ppl's blog.
its kinda fun to see what ppl's been going through their life.
and to know that you are not the only one who is miserable.
i realised that first impression is not to be believed.
don't ever judge them by their looks and characters.
sometimes we see them laughing their ass out.
but deep inside, they are crying.
hmm. what am i blabbering about actually....
well, happy youth day ppl (:
where'd you go..i miss you so.
[ 10:39 PM ]
you noe wat?
i wanna turn back time and redo my oral.
fuck sia, conversation damn sucks lar.
my reading was super ok. only stutter one word.
the passage was so damn easy. about remaja.
and i actually had come up with lots of possible question that will be asked.
and i actually freak out wen i sat in front of them.
wow. i act so frenly and all. and happy with my reading aloud.
then so confident i can do it for conversation.
and i actually cannot rmbr anything wen they ask the first question.
so i do that 'umm...' and 'uhhhh...' thing. sobsobsob.
and one of the teacher actually finished most of my sentence.
well confirm2 i pass lar. but distinction????
hoping. hoping. hopiiiiiiiing. pray hard.
well guess wat? in the hall just now was damn it funny lar.
irfan..rid..iqah they all was so damn noisy and i actually pissed off.
den suddenly someone- came up with an idea. forgotten who.
if the person scratch right head means hard. left head means easy.
and if ok-ok den play with the hair.
irfan was damn nonsence. told us he will scratch his butt.
right butt, hard. left butt, easy. butt crack, ok-ok.
and he end up scratching his head. lame.
most of them scratching left head. so we were not so panic.
and true enuff it was easy. but conversation......
everyone flunk. well..except maybe lydia..fancisca all that lar.
oh god..lydia talk so loud that we could actually hear a few words from the back.
heheh.
guess now all i had to do well was lc. that's my last chance seyy. ):
[ 8:40 PM ]
and and to fatin...
glad that you found ur art folio.
weird knnnnnn?
padahal kiter dah carik pat cca block seyy ari tu.
haiyo.
its either the ghost are playing the trick on us or its a HUMAN.
orrrrrrrr ur drawing block haunted ehhh..
hahahahahaha.
wooooooooooh. (:
well now must happy happy k.
the law of attraction seriously work seyy.
[ 8:31 PM ]
forgot to bring money to sch today.
and i had to starved myself for the whole day.
and worse today cca day. had to go for art.
kepala peniing siol.
went home early as mama and ayah picking me up.
told them i was hungry.
went to fetch farah and straighaway go amk to eat at banquet.
baru hilang pening. kehkeh.
and and tok to my mum yest. i need a new phone.
mama says oooook. yay! i love you mama.
seriously i need a new phone.
i told her i would pay back but she says its ok.
she bought as a present. (: lagi sayaaaaang mama.
hahahaha. mama good mood lar seyy.
tmr is oral malay. hope i would do well for it.
bahasa baku! argghhh! kekok siol!!!
been practising in sch and at home.
and i sound funny. and SLOW. kn fatin???? hahahahah.
nvm..would do my best tmr. confident dian!!!!!!
[ 5:03 PM ]
things have been different nowadays.
and its changing fast.
i dunno how it happens.
days passed and im still not ready to face the future. my o level.
whyyyyyyy?
ppl started revising. and i can see strands of white hair on them. lol. kidding.
and im still.....in nowhere?
had my conversation today in front of the whole class.
was given a choice between talking in front of the class or individually.
mrs maaran was not appreciated wen some wants to talk individually.
i was scared and panicked. and i chose to talk in front of the whole class.
i was the fourth speaker. and my knee was shaking.
i kept saying the 'umm...' thing and i dun realised it.
my topic was about a race and i talked about the race i had 3 years ago from silat.
got 14/16. was shocked.
did my math homework yest. but gave up halfway.
oh please dear god...i plead to you. make me understand maths.
its my future. its my life. PLEASE. i beg youuuu.
i wanna pass math. C6 pon jadi lar! janji pass!
wanna ask wan for help. but he's currently busy on his schedule.
hmm. gtg. need to meet my mum sooooooon.
bye.