Hello, my name is Dian Farhana
Friends call me Dian. Colleagues/teachers/faci/strangers prefer calling me Farhana.
I don’t why, they just do. -.-
For me? I’m fine with both, really. (:
I have a lot of nicknames; some are too embarrassing to state down.
Well, I’m officially legal as of 8 February 1992. Nothing to brag off actually.
Yes, it sure sounds sexciting and I do anticipate for this special day.
But once it’s over, it’s over. My life goes on, still the same every single day. -.-
I’m taking a diploma in RP majoring in Sports and Leisure management.
This may not be my first choice but still, I am really glad I get into this course.
I shall live my hopes on seeing my one and only idol, Usain Bolt.
Yes, I’m a big fan of him because I go “wow” when I see him runs and I go “oooh~” when he wins. :p
Oh well, it was just a wish. I hope it would come true though. :D USAIN BOLT, please visit Singapore, pretty please with millions cherries on tops.
One word, nine letters to describe myself.
I’m different; metaphorically though.
I’m different in a way that I have my own mindset and my thoughts, my belief; my thinking is different from others.
I guess I belong to the minority groups that think the same way as I do.
I think I am anti-social.
Honestly, I’m not a person who mingles with strangers and hit off with them like polaroid instantly.
I am quiet when I’m alone. But once I’m with a bunch of crazy friends around me, be prepared to see me being crazier than them.
I don’t like noisy places or worse, crowded places.
I just have this feeling that everyone is staring at me and that is scary.
I pity my parents most of the time because they are usually pressured whenever we are dining out.
I am born to be stubborn. That’s something you have to bear with me.
I want things to go my way. I am extremely determined to achieve what I want and it must happen.
I am very demanding. Try go against me, I’ll give you a triple worse attitude. Wanna give it a try?
I am egoistic, that I can’t deny. I always wanted to win. But sometimes (rarely). I would relent; that’s when you guys are lucky though.
I don’t like people who use profanities.
I can’t stand people saying it even though it’s once in a while.
But sometimes, I do say it too. :p But I’ll regret and smack my mouth.
I rarely feel angry. I guess that’s the only positive thing I am proud of myself.
But once I do, I’ll go extremely superbly quiet.
I guess I’ve learnt it since I was small to always keep my mouth shut.
That’s why it’s hard for me to console people who are angry with me.
Oh, but at the same time I am a rebel person too. Contradicting, I know.
But I would only rebel when things doesn’t go my way.
I rebel in my quiet way. I may be quiet when I am angry but I rebel at the same time. Get it?
I’m patient. Patience with limits. Be friends with me and you‘ll know how high my patience is.
Im not perfect.
And there’s still more weakness in me which I’ve yet to reveal.
Despite all these imperfections, I have a fair share of my strength in myself.
But that is for you guys to judge me. Now enough about myself.
Meet my one and only boyfriend, Nadhir Osman.
♥ My one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.♥
22.02.2010, that’s the special date. And it is special to us somehow in terms of the numeric terms.
As cliché as it may sound, but he completes my life.
He’s my best friend, my best companion, my best advisor, my best everything.
He may not be the most perfect guy in every girl’s eye, but he is to me.
His imperfections are perfect enough to be my better half.
Our relationship may not be as those like in fairytales.
We live in a place called reality.
We’ve had our share of fights and arguments but we never let them get us down.
How much I love him, why do I love him..it’s better left unsaid.
Just so all of you know, HE knows, that I love him truly; always and forever, eternity and beyond.♥
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Summary of my life.[ 9:13 PM ]
School: It's coming the third week of school, and Im already starting to slack. -.- No Dian No. But, surprisingly, I got 3 As in my two weeks of school! Everyone say yaaaay. I knoww right, very shocking. Dian - A grade? So not a good combination. Nevermind, this is a motivation for me to get more As. HAHA.
Friends: I think I sort of neglected them. ): Im so sorry. I definitely miss you guys.
Love: Me and boyfriend is pretty much in good terms nowadays. In fact, its getting better each day. We're giving a month to improve on ourselves to become a good gf/bf. So far so good. Well, of course to me, everything is fine. Not sure what he thinks though! hehe. I love him many many.♥
Family: Oooooh, I guess lots of ups and downs here. My situation are mostly the downside. -.- Im beginning to hate everything that is happening. Like totally. Tsktsk. But of course I still love my family. (: And gossssh, when will I start praying back ah? Looking at my family praying together make me sad only. Please la Dian, can don't malas2 anot. Okok, I shall start ASAP. Tanak banyak dosa. -.-
Myself: Hah. Im tired. ):
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
[ 10:29 PM ]
A week and a day without blogging. Seems like Im busy with my life, NOT. I think my life have more freedoms than I was in year 1. Tsktsk. Just that Im being more lazy now. Lazy pig.
Anyway, although Im not as busy as the bees but really, Im tired. Problems after problems. Dealing with it was one thing, solving it was another. Its tiring. And some people refused to understand my situation.
I want to list down all my worries, my sadness and everything that I bottled up inside me. But then again, its better not to say anything.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Ish3[ 11:02 PM ]
In the morning, a few minutes after lesson starts..
Faci: Why are you late? Boy: Meet friend. Faci: So your friends are more important is it? Boy: Yes. Faci: Well okay then, next time come into class first then you can go out and meet your friends.
During lesson.. (Apparently, he pick on Ivan, he's Indian)
Faci: Eh thambi, what's the answer? (referring to the questions on the slide) Ivan: I don't know.. Fastforward.. Faci: Are you gay? Ivan: No, Im not. Faci: Are you sure you're not? Ivan: Trust me, Im not gay. Faci: Well, if I "trust" you, you won't be gay. Awkward silence in class. Faci: Trust with the H.
Get it? Thrust. So its like, if he thrust his eherm to Ivan, will make Ivan gay. -.- Horny bastard.
For those who can't stand profanities or me saying vulgar, please do not read this post. Because at this moment, I have this anxiety of saying all the profanities in one shot. I know, so not me. And yeah, if any of you guys realised, I've been using it for a little too many times these few days. Haiz.
Let's start with today module. Today's module is sociology. It is a very interesting topic I must say. But the faci damn fucking bullshit. The moment he speaks, I've already had this hatreds towards him.
This faci wanna step like so macho and handsome. But he's a damn old faggot who probably have 100s of grandchildren. He speaks like as though he rule the world but sadly my classmate rule him out. Unfortunately, he's not that coward to back off and still sticks to his nonsensical attitude. Macam Cibai like that.
One more thing, he's a freaking horny bastard. Like what the fuck ah with all the horny jokes. Its not cool at all seriously. -.-
I think my blog post are getting more boring each day. Not that I've got nothing to talk about. There's millions of things on my mind that I wanna spill out. But I am just purely lazy. Lazy bitch.
K la bye.
Monday, April 19, 2010
[ 11:06 PM ]
Haiz. I don't really know where we are going now. Seems like its getting worse every minute passed. Okay, I will take the blame. I will accept that all are my faults. But really, I hope, I really hope people should ask before saying anything. This applies to everyone.
Now, its not fair right to get a sarcastic remark when you did nothing or say nothing at all. But nevermind, I'll just pretend I've said something so not true and actually hurt 2 party. Sorry very much.
Guys, whenever you deal a bad situation with me, please don't give in. Please don't take all the blames. Because it seems that everything is started from me. Yes, ME. Everything is on me. So let me be the one to take the blame. Blame everything on me.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
[ 4:33 PM ]
So here I am once again after what seems like dinasours years since I've updated. School has finally started and the FOPS have end with the SHL being the champions. I am still euphoric over the fact that we have won this year. Now there's no reason for the SOH to look down on us.
My new class is great. It's somewhat noisy but we're not yet bonded. Nevermind, it's only the second day though. Such a sad case me and rahmat stick to each other like a glue since school started. Reason being we don't know anyone in class. Well, I do know a few of them, 2 from my previous class, but well, not the type of people that I would be seen hanging around with. Lucky there's Rahmat. :D
I really don't have the mood to blog but I feel like sharing something here. I am not okay. Yes, that's it. I am downright not okay.
I'm not a person who would show to people that I'm feeling down although those who clearly can read my expression would sense the difference. But I would never share about my problems or feelings even to my closest friends unless its necessary. But now, yes now, I feel like telling the whole world what's my bothering me at this point of time. For once, I want to let out all my feelings that I've been bottling up inside me.
Yet again, here is not a place for me to share something so personal. All I need is someone whom I can share everything, every single thing, and actually knows how to make me feel better at the end of the day.
And again, not everything can be solved if we share it with others.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
morning kemoaning.[ 8:02 AM ]
I am very suhleepy. But I don't want to sleep. I feel like blogging. But I don't know what to tell story about. I feel like telling story kemory of my dad.
Today, my dad very the perangai. I think he sleepy thats the why. But seeing him talking nonsense make me want to laugh because it tickles me. Because its hard to see him in this behaviour. HARDLY. He's always the serious man. So when he perangai like this morning, very the cute like that.
So, as usual, in the morning we head to the immigration. Like duhh. -.- After scanning passports at Singapore immigration, we head to the check item there. I know I very selenge, so long in and out still don't know all these places. Then suddenly my dad nagged about something.
"Biol betol la dekni. Tak tau nak drive kedepan. Sebok nak membontot kereta kat depan"
So it happens that the car infront of us refused to drive to another lane. And my dad can't drive to another lane because the car seems to hinder the pathway.
Mum: "Agaknye dier tu malas agaknye nak drive." Dad: "Takdela. Ni mesti case takot." Mum: "Nak takot apenye?" Dad: "Ntahla. Dah memang dier ni biol."
Then, the driver went out to open up his boot car (or car boot),
-___________________-" I think my dad got attitude problem today. HAHA. But he calling people biol, very funny.
Then, once we are out of the immigrations, at the highway there, we drove past 2 bikes. One of the cyclist, omg damn fat can. I think his size is bigger than his bike.
After that, we sent Farah to school first. But it was damn early.
Dad: "Farah gi la teman security guard jage gate. Buat kawan dengan dier."
-_-"
I think he's the one who is biol. Veh biol. -.-
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Cinta[ 10:31 PM ]
Cinta, perkataan yang senang disebut namun sukar untuk ditafsirkan. Cinta, walaupun ia hanya merupakan lima abjad namun ia membawa erti yang sangat mendalam. Bila disebut cinta, ramai yang akan tersenyum dan memberi makna ia adalah sesuatu perasaan yang sungguh indah. Namun tidak ketinggalan juga segelintir manusia yang tidak memaparkan keceriaan tetapi disebaliknya. Pada mereka, ia hanyalah sesuatu yang begitu menyakitkan, begitu melukakan hati si sang manusia.
Terlalu banyak makna diberi kepada perkataan yang begitu kecil ini. Setiap orang mempunyai maknanya tersendiri. Namun begitu, apakah sebenarnya makna cinta ini?
Ku cuba mencari erti cinta. Namun ku gagal untuk mendapatkan jawapan yang tepat. Akhirnya ku temui serangkap yang memberi makna cinta yang ku rasa memang padat dengan perkataan itu.
"Cinta adalah perasaan istimewa yang dianugerahkan kepada manusia. Cinta menghidupkan jiwa. Cinta menjadikan seseorang bahagia dan merana pada masa yang sama. Sesiapa yang memahami cinta akan menjadi tuannya, bukan hambanya."
Apakah benar definisi ini?
Padaku, jawapan ini memuaskan dan ia sungguh tepat sekali. Walau bagaimanapun,
Hanya kalian yang dapat menentukan erti sebuah cinta. (:
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
The truth behind the lies.[ 11:16 PM ]
HAHAHA. I think its sort of true?
Bawa ku terbang.[ 4:35 PM ]
Mata Ke Mata.. Ke Hati.. Hati ke Hati.. Hati Hati..
Bibir Ke Bibir.. Bicara Janji.. Janji Ke Janji.. Jadi Menjadi
Rindu ke Rindu.. Termimpi mimpi.. Hari Ke Hari.. Nanti di nanti.. Menanti Pasti.. Pasti Disisi.. Sisiku Kini.. Ternanti nanti..
Bila diceritakan tentang cinta Segalanya muncul sekelip mata Semuanya di depan matanya dia Makan tidur pun tak lena
Dia cinta Dia sayang Aku dicinta Aku disayang
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang Kamulah jua yang membawa cinta Ke jalannya..
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang Ke bintang kejora cinta kita Kekal untuk selamanya
Kita berdua kian bermesra Rindu makin membara Kita berdua bermain kata Pasang surut tak endah
Dia cinta Dia. sayang Aku. dicinta.. Aku disayang
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang Kamulah jua yang membawa cinta Ke jalannya
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang Ke bintang kejora cinta kita Kekal untuk selamanya
Mata hati jiwaku Seluas langkah di Sebesar cubisan Namun segitiga bermuda
Ku ganti sungai merah Dengan darahku Rinduku meragutkan Kehangatan cinta kita
Mungkin tidak sehebat mana Ku di pertikaikan kasih Ku bukan tempat dua ketiga Di hati ku cuma kau yang satu Seterusnya nyatanya hanya Dirinya jiwanya Jiwa ku rentas benua Warna angkasa cinta Cintalah kamu
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang Kamulah jua yang membawa cinta Ke jalannya
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang Ke bintang kejora cinta kita Kekal untuk selamanya
Such a beautiful song (':[ 1:32 PM ]
You've touched these tired eyes of mine And mapped my face out line by line And some how growing old feels fine I listen close for I'm not smart You wrap your thoughts and works of art And they're hanging on the walls of my heart.
I may not have the softest touch I may not say the words as such And though I may not look like much I'm yours.
And though my edges maybe rough I never feel I'm quite enough And it may not seem like very much But I'm yours.
You healed these scars over time And braced my soul, you loved my mind You're the only angel in my life The day the news came, my best friend died My knees went weak, and you saw me cry Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes.
I may not have the softest touch I may not say the words as such And though I may not look like much I'm yours.
And though my edges maybe rough I never feel I'm quite enough And it may not seem like very much But I'm yours.
I may not have the softest touch I may not say the words as such And though I don't fit in that much But I'm yours.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Why bother getting first when you get nothing in return?[ 10:28 PM ]
Today, the first day of the week, I actually fulfill my goal! Of course, it need to be done regularly, duhh. HAHA. But omgoodness, I did it! K, let me elaborate in detailed how's my first try.
K, so I started off jogging in this looooooong track that leads from toa payoh to bishan. Its around 5500m distance. So I very confident start running. I was panting like a mad dog half the journey but I didn't stop until I reach at the other end. Ahh, achievement! :D 5500m dok!
Then nearby bishan got stadium. So I walked all the way there. Feeling2 nak continue jogging at the stadium track but then I saw toilet! Then konon2 saket perot ah. Actually not. Just want to sit longer at the toilet bowl. HAHA. Then sit infront of the fan dunno for how long. Then finally I went outside to continue jogging. Suddenly I got no mood to jog at all. But I forced myself to run and I did. Just for one round. -.-
After that I got jealous of the old people over there. They jog many rounds around the stadium and they are not even panting! So embarrasing man. So I went out and continue jogging at the long track. So from Bishan back to Toa payoh. But HAHA. Fail attempt siol. Halfway I already panting. Before that, I saw this group of primary school kids with their teacher jogging on the track also. Halamaaak, all so active sia. Then when I was still jogging and actually left them waaaaay behind, suddenly appear this primary school boy overshoot me. Offended siol! How can he run faster than me. Then another boy jogged pass. And I heard the boy ask the other one who got first this question "Why bother getting first when you get nothing in return?". -__________________________-"
Eh, although we get nothing in return but by getting first, its a sense of achievement! Halamak ni budak. Yes, I feel proud whenever I run and get in first. Because to me, I did it! But oh wells, there is some truth in his statements. Even if you don't get first but you complete the rounds, you still achieved it. Hmmm, k la whatever. Its just the feeling. HAHA.
So, I gave up jogging. My "ulu hati" is hurting already. I don't what its called in English. HAHA. So I walked throughout the journey. Before that still sempat dudok bawah blok ambil angin sekejap. HE HE HE.
K, so its not a continuous jog. But hey, I achieved my goal of running 5 rounds of stadium. In fact, more than that ah! Hmpfh! Cheyy, eksyen. HAHA. I think around 6 rounds of stadium kot? Or maybe more? Definitely not less okay!
K la bye
Legal the second[ 10:03 PM ]
HAHA. Happy being the second legal birthday within our group. HAHA to Fatin and Iqah, NOVEMBER babiesssss. :p
Oh well, meet this dear sweet bestfriend of mine. I call her laro she call me muji. My 4 years + friend and still counting onnnn.
Dear Laro,
Today is your special day indeed. And makes it different from any other years before this, is that you have finally reach the legal stage. Finally, we can take license and enjoy the legal activities. However, do take care of yourself aite dear. :D
You have been a very sweet best friend to me. You're so good at cheering me up when Im down. And of course not forgotten your special skills in "guys". Haha! Whenever I am heartbroken, you'll be the person to knock some sense into me.
In my whole life, I've never seen your worst anger ever. You're always that smiley pretty girl who just loveeeee to flirt. HAHA. K not. But true enough, its very hard seeing your angry side. And thats what I just love about you.
I love your one hair strand. I love your pose without specs in every camwhore. I love your sexy smile. I love your laughter. I love you in just the way you are. Sounds mushy but really, I do love you. Of course, as a friend - best friend. :D
And so again, welcome to the legal world! Hope you enjoy every seconds of your life today. We shall celebrate soon okay! :D
Sunday, April 4, 2010
merindu kepastian[ 2:38 AM ]
Andai kau menjadi pelangi Biar ku jadi awannya Agar kita selalu bersama
Andai kau menjadi sang duyung Biar ku jadi karangnya Agar kita sentiasa bersua
Andai kau menjadi merpati Biar ku menjadi sang bayu Agar kita sering bertemu
Andai kau menjadi puisi Biar ku jadi melodi Bersama kita menyanyi
Andai ku menjadi rembulan Sudikah kau menjadi kejora Hingga pagi nanti
Andai esok aku menjadi tanah Sudikah engkau menjadi bunga Menghiasi dadaku
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Good Friday is good for me.[ 1:44 AM ]
Hehe. Remember, WITHOUT A DOUBT. :D
Oh well, Happy Good Friday you people! Was it good for you guys? :D
As for me, hmmm.. nothing much I must say. But its good in terms of nothing bad happens to me? Haha. So my familia spent a day out jalan2. Although my dad's not really good with the directions in Malaysia, but its not a hindrance for us to enjoy a day out in a foreign place. True enough, we got lost quite a number of times. Funny thing was, we keep driving at the same round-about for 4 times! And finally, we decided to follow this Singapore car and yes, lucky enough we're heading to the same place. L-O-L pleaseeee.
And selamat bertunang to Nadhir's sister. Erm, not really sure what's her name. But yeah, congratulations still. :D Dah pun bertunang. Now counting days to Kak Niena's tunang. Then then Dianadhir's turn! Cheyy, gatal. HAHA.
Can you guys believe it? School is in two weeks time! Suddenly, I feel like holidays are not really that long. But so what. Im looking forward to school. Yesyes! Oooh, can't wait. And Im kind of nervous getting to know my future class and my future classmates. Hopefully, this time I get a different class. HAHA. Pity me and umar y'know. Stuck in the same class for 2 semester, not funny okay. But this is veh cute. You see, the thing is. Im stuck in the same class for 2 semester and so is Umar. And the next cute thing is, our class is opposite each other. :D So we have been neighbours for 2 semester straight. Oh wells, we're not gonna be neighbours anymore since he is DOAL and I am DSLM. Haha
Im counting days to FOP! Can't wait can't wait! :D
Friday, April 2, 2010
Say it again ♥[ 12:59 AM ]
The thing about love Is I never saw it coming It kinda crept up and took me by surprise And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering Is this true, I want to hear it one more time
Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder
Say it again for me Cuz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again
Thing about you is you know just how to get me You talk about us like there's no end in sight The thing about me is that I really want to let you Open that door and walk into my life
Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder
Say it again for me Cuz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love
And it feels like it's the first time That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain And never in my whole life Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name
Say it again for me Cuz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again (x9)
When you tell me you're in love... Say it again
Ohhh... Ohhhhhh
Yeaaah, say it again. haha
Specially for Dyna[ 12:27 AM ]
I, Dian Farhana Binte Muhammad Yazid, would like to apologise to Nur Dyna Bte Osman for accusing her cheating my feelings.
K tk k, Abang Nadhir yang salah k. :D Senyum sikeeeet. hehehe
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Happy April Fool's Day[ 11:28 PM ]
Finally the day has come to an end in a few minutes time. Yes!
Not that I don't like this "special" day. Omg, I love it. But I guess, it would only be fun if I were to be in Singapore or in school. So, today has been such a boredom to me. Sad case man.
To those who know me well, yes Im a prankster queen. Some actually awaits for my pranks today which sadly did not happen. HAHA. I guess thats the best prank ever by not playing pranks on anyone.
I was having a hard time communicating with people today. Because, whatever I say, they thought I was playing prank on them. Seriously, wthhhh. -.- And it include my mum. Pfft. I told her to wake me up in the morning because I want to go Singapore and she never wake me up. Because she thought I was fooling her. Tell me which part of it I was joking around?
People are so scared of my pranks. -.- If I were to think back, I didn't really pull a prank that much. Haha. So when I told laro that Im still in Malaysia, she thought I was fooling her.
Nevertheless, I did manage to pull a prank to my baby. In fact, I prank him twice. :D Sad case, this is his first time kene pranked by me. And because of that, I make him angry. Haha. Sorry b.
And like any past years, my mum succeed to pull a prank on me. But this year not really that successful. Unlike last year. The worst prank she ever done to me. Urghhh. Can't forget it.