& I figured it all out
[ 1:18 AM ]
Whatever that may happen in the future, I need all the luck that I can get now.
Im losing all my best friends. Because of who? ME. Little did I know, I have hurt many souls out there. How cruel can I be to hurt people's feelings even my own best friends'! So heartless.
No words could describe how regret I am, how sorry I am and most of all how much I miss my best friends. I regard each of them my best of friends. Regard each of them equally. Yet, all of them seems to feel left out. One think I was close to the other and the other thinks Im closer to one. Trust me, its hard for me equally too.
Because when you guys feel that way, I felt the same way too. Each of you guys have your own kind of friends. I do too. But you guys somehow get along so well with your new friend and sometimes I felt left behind too.
Im gonna take a deep breathe and try to make everything all right again. Haish )':
NAD, HAD FUN IN SENTOSA AREN'T YOU?! NOW ITS MY TURN BAYBEH! HAHA :D
Time to change directions
[ 12:18 AM ]
Thanks to my emotional breakdown, I've not been enjoying my holidays! Tell me where the fun part was in watching tv, sleep, online and eat the WHOLE day at home? Where has the plans with friends and the dates with guys gone too?!
Im avoiding every meetups with friends including best friends. I canceled dates from guys and even ignored some. -.- Trust me, I don't know whats up with me either. Im gonna change before its too late. There's still time! Im gonna try my best to meet up with the people. :D
And wow, someone..finally that someone just decided to unblock me from msn. And I've yet to unblock him. Should I even do the same thing? Even though its like been over a month, Im sorry Nad if u even read this, I still have this small itsy bitsy feelings towards him. Still has those little soft spots towards him in my heart. Hmmm.. a month is not really that long y'knw. Im trying my best here anyway. And with the help of that guy over there, hopefully I will be okay. I know he can do a little something to my heart. Its been a month too since I've known him, he sure did a little magic! :p
Where did I went wrong?
[ 12:59 PM ]
December is ending soon. And I still can't see any signs that my life will be any better. -.-
I don't know what's wrong with me. Im avoiding people including my best friends. Im not as outgoing as last time. Been hiding at home since holidays unless Im going to work. )':
New year is coming. Im gonna think of my resolutions for next year. This time, I wanna fulfill all my resolutions. I don't want another year like this year. I NEVER fulfilled anything. -.-
I miss Iqah. I miss Fatin. I miss laro. I miss Nad. I miss my classmates. Im missing everyone. Haish.
[ 2:19 PM ]
A pretty much low-profile blog now (:
There's a reason behind why I decided to change my blog link. People deserves to know my rants instead of me privatised my blog. Although I know not that alot of people cares how my lifes are now or before.
Not many things happen during the past weeks since holidays. But too many feelings involved.
Will update once again when my life actually falls on the right path. Right now its gone in all directions and Im lost. Im tired of trying to make it right. But Im not giving up. I sensed signs that my life would be better in a moment. Hopefully, this time, my instincts are right. (:
Don't wait
[ 11:30 PM ]
"Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari. Dia datangkan petir dan kilat. Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangnya matahari. Rupa-rupanya Allah memberi kita pelangi."
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Syurga CintaA quote that I will keep in mind always. Thanks Nadhir. (:
Today had lunch with ex bf, Awan. Omg or whaaat. Naik vroom2 la seyy. :p
I know he's like the guy that I took the longest to get over with -.- The guy that I used to love alot -_- The guy that just makes me keep on blaming myself for everything -__- The guy that makes me cry -___- The guy that just makes me so crazy over him -____- The guy that I always remember every day and night even after its all over -_____- The guy that makes me wait till God knows how long -______________-
Now that he's back, I should be happy, shouldn't I? WRONG. Not to say that I was not happy or anything, just that..he's gone for too long. And you know, feelings does fade. And to hear someone says that I have still have feelings for my ex is bullshit. Damn bullshit. Know what? When I met him this afternoon, it is as though I just met a typical friend to hang out with. Know why? Because when he was away, someone else captured my heart.
I read my previous post and I swear I was being a dumbass. I shouldn't have said I would wait. Because in the end, I will change.
I never did waited for anyone.
[ 11:02 PM ]
Im a girl who never accept defeats.
Once someone played fire with me, don't ever dream anyone will put a stop to it unless of course if it's the one who started it.
Don't even think I will give up because I won't.
If you think Im scared of your threats, you're damn wrong.
Oh wait, if you over there(yeah you), thinks this post is referring to you, DREAM ON.
I think I need to specify each of my post is referring to who so people won't get so damn fucked up with my words and end up blaming me. Im damn pissed off with that k now.
So, hello freedom of 3 weeks! :D YAH RIGHT. Haha. Im gonna be busy with work and ig. But I guess Im okay with that. Since there's nothing for me to do. No one to date with and all. Padehal2. Ok chalobeteh.
Thing's I'll never say
[ 10:06 PM ]
Saw this in Fatin's blog! Suh-weeeet or whaaaaat. (:
[ 2:46 PM ]
Its been ages since me and family had a family outing. I've been busy with school and work. Dad's been busy with work. And we had a blast yesterday. sort of.
We planned to watch Darah. But it's not showing anymore. So we watched Paranormal Activity. I know, we're damn ketinggalan zaman. And wow, there's only 2 places showing it. Vivo and P.S. And both timing damn late uh. Vivo started at 11.50pm and P.S started at 2am. Obviously we choose vivo. Haha.
So it was abit spoiled on the way there. Not surprised. We just HAVE to quarrel about something. But then, everything went fine in the end. The movie was yeah, scary. But I was damn irritated by the indian guys right in front of me. Talking non stop. Not only me irritated. Even others were too. One even throwed tissue at them. And one even shouted at them. Haha. But they continued talking -.-
Once the movie was over, one malay guy same row as us actually at the indian guys. He say he paid movie tickets not to hear them talk. Hahaha. Damn funny siol. But true waaaat. tsktsk.
I seriously can't sleep. Keep thinking about the movie. End up slept at 5+ am. -.-
[ 12:28 AM ]
Its been pretty much a baaaaaaad day today. I've go no mood to be longwinded today. So just summarise the whole day.
Morning was pretty much down due to certain reason. Actually the whole day was pretty much down. Thought everything was going to be okay but maybe we're just expecting a little bit too high huh? And during lunch, someone stole my money. 10 dollars notes siol. Tk agak! Ish! -.- The thief so clever. Left me with $2. Pffttt. UT was.. I thought it was ok. Yet again, I finished the first. Damn. -.- I don't know sia what to type. I thought I answered well but to see classmate(s) type grandfather story.. Wahlaooooo
After UT, met mum and sis at amk to look for headphones. My sis so cerewet caaaan -.- In the end never buy because don't have the type that she want. Then, met dad. Had dinner at banquet. I want KFC but dad don't want. Sad.
k bye.
Am actually webcamming with nadhir right now :p I know, its 1.25 am for god sake! Hees.
Chances
[ 9:38 PM ]
The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, were just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.
"You wonder why I don’t talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it’s not that I don’t want to, it’s just that everything I want to say I can’t tell you anymore."
What hurts the most
[ 8:23 PM ]
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok, but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was trying to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you every where I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret, but I know
If I could do it over
I would trade, give away, show the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Uhh hey yeaaaaaaaaah!
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ohh ohh!
[ 11:12 PM ]
did i mention that i was the first person to finish ut again today? 20 minutes.
AH BAGOS. byk kau punye nk buck up. dian2. -.-
Ah bacer la korang
[ 10:05 PM ]
Finally, some quality time with mum today even if its for a short while. Its been ages since we were alone and enjoy ourselves. :D J8 shopping was so not counted because.. oh well its not really a bonded quality time.
Met her at tpy coz she wanted to pay something. And since we're there, we shopped. I know..-.- of all places. Haha. But hey, it doesn't matter where is the place as long as we know how to make it enjoyable (: So, after we paid the stuff, we went around the tpy uh. haha. Sis bdae is coming soon. So, yeah mum told me a damn short funny convo between her and sis. Well, mum planned to buy her a bag. She sort of suspected it and told mum don't buy it. Mum was liked.. -____-" Then she say she want money. HAHA. Pandai mintak sey adek aku skarang. But then she say if don't want to give nevermind. Buy for her headphones or wallet. HAHA. And the wallet, she want like mine. Siak uhhh. Mahal siol my wallet. It cost around 30+ bucks sak. But nvm la. I told mum I will buy her that. Mum can buy the headphones. So we walked the whole tpy just for the sake of the headphones -________-". Its damn easy to find but the colour is the problem. She want pink. PINK siol.. ??!!! Gosh. But what to do.. haish..
So while we hunted the whole tpy, we enjoyed every minute of it. First we saw a spa having some promotion. I did eyebrow shaping. Damn cheap. 2 bucks only siol. Better then threading. Happy skjap ^.^ Mum wanna do facial. But then she got her make-up on and she lazy to wash and put it on back. So she just sat there and waited for me. I payed for the eyebrow packages! 10 session for 50 bucks. Fulermak, money gone like that. But cheap mah.. So just pay. Haha.
Then, went to buy shoes. Then, went to buy food at burger king. Then.. went home. HAHA. Because Im damn tired. Mum's tired too. We practically walked the whole tpy. How can we not be tired?! -.- All thanks to Farah Yusniza's gift. And guess what? We didn't buy uh. Because there's no pink. Pffft. Alot of green seyy. Niceeeeee. Humph! But damn expensive.
In the bus, we had a talk. Its been damnnnnnnnn long since we talked to each other about our lives. Haish. And she asked about hanlet. More haisssssssh. Sedih uh abeh. I always dreamed of telling her one day that we are together. But dreams are just dreams la eh. So I told her Im trying my best to move on right now. Making lots of new guys friends. LOL. But she knows one thing about my heart. I may go around making friends with guys but I will stick to one till God knows how long. She even asked me about Aizat. I was like.."Oh, I've got no feelings for him already uh". I bet she was shocked. Hmm..
Its nice to be able to share something with a mum. But sometimes I feel so low. Like just now, when I talked about my failure in love..its damn embarrassing okay. Like why we never worked out and so on. Haish. But its okay, Im still young. As what I have promised, Im gonna have bf only when I reached 18. So yeah.. still months away. Woo! (:
Ok, anyway2..lets talk about school. School was fine I guess? Just that the first break was a bit of a spoiler. -.- Didn't expect it at all. For a minute, I was like damn excited then I remembered that Im not supposed to feel happy. -.- Urgh. Im supposed to stop kn. Alermaaaak. Then, in class Izzah webcammed with Afeeq(if im nt wrong) and nadhir. I sebok2 la join skali. Hahaha. Afeeq power siol buat rhyme. Show u example ehhh..
nadhir likes her, pulls off she's so stunnin'. Askin' izzah for advice, rejection's he's scared of facin'.busted pe. padehal tak seyy. -.-
her contact lens are nice, her fringe is so long. i feel like cuttin' them off, now that's not so wrong.sumpah tk perlu. but betol la. my fringe damn long. hahaha
four points of the screen, a girl that unknown to me. she thinks she very pretty, well i can't deny but agree. i'm searchin words like magic, a little slow u can't see. now i've completed a verse, please pay me it ain't free. I swear I didn't say Im pretty. Urghhh.
I know it was like.. -______-".. but hey, the rhyme is nice ok! The content only not nice. Hahaha.
Erm..oh3! Today is Thomas Birthday! Happy Birthday Classmate! :D Just turn 17 or whaaat. Younger than me sia. HAHAHA. :p
K done.
And hmm.. maybe its true la eh. Im a bad daughter. Bad lover. And a bad friend. But at least I don't complain to other friends. Maybe last time I do. But hey, I've grown up. We're not in primary sch or secondary school anymore. To read something from who I've always known as best friend that really upset me is so not cool k. Seriously.
forever and always - taylor swift
[ 1:07 PM ]
Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye
We caught onto something, I hold on to the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding? 'Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone; he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said, forever and always
Oh, oh
And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore
And I stare at the phone; he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, oh
And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it, baby, I don't think so
Oh, oh
Oh, back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything?
Back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything?
'Cause it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
And I stare at the phone he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always!
And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it, baby, you said forever and always,
Yeah
[ 10:05 PM ]
DIAN FARHANA!
[ 8:03 PM ]
You better fucking change yourself. What the fuck is happening to you?!I just checked my ut grades.
Math -
Emarketing - C+
Entrepreneurship - C
Cognitive - C
web and media - -
Shit, its damn bad. I need to do it more seriously this time. No more being the first person to finished for every UT.
Mum showed me the letter that was sent by school. A warning letter due to my lots of absence from school. -____________________-"
I also kene last warning from mum. No more ponteng school. T.T
That was the bad part of today.
Now, the good part.
Nothing much happening today. Nothing to look forward for. Nothing to get excited for.
But, went home with my closest guy fren today. Saper lagi kalau bukan Aizat (: Feels like the good old time. Except that its only both of us. ): Iqah didn't follow us. And "he" was no longer my friend. Haish.
And another best part is I met my matrep partner too, Iskandar. If Im not wrong, with his gf. Hehe. :p Alermak, matrep dating uh. HAHAHA
I guess that's all for today. Simple life, simple post. Hmm..
[ 10:47 PM ]
Today is monday rainbow uh! haha (:
Let see, went to school alone this morning. Iqah never came to sch. Sad sey. Hmm. Then, stayed till first break after which I partial-ed. Izzah uh ni. Hahaha. Hang out with her in the library. Lunch, Riko, Adib and Adam joined us. Then, slowly Adam's friend joined us too. We hang out at the guitar side there and I learnt a few guitar chords. woo! (:
I was bored so I decided to add random people which I refused to add last time. Hmm, I guess just move on la. Nothing wrong make new friends kn? haish. But it feels so weird. So awkward to talk to them. I practically have to think for a few seconds to reply their simple question to make it feel like I enjoyed chatting with them. ): I did enjoy uh of course. Nice talking to them, but its not the same.
Anyway, accompanied nad to have a talk with her bf. At first I want to sit beside her. Then Adib scold me. Say menyebok only. When I think back, true la what he say. Haha. So I just sat few distance away from him. So while waiting one corner ALONE like some gundu, saw Aizat! Didn't recognise him at first but then he shouted my name. Haha. Met Michelle too! (: Aww, miss you guys la! When will we be having orientation outing again seyy..
So while waiting for them to over, I went to Aizat and they all la. Hugged Aizat. Hees. But trust me, the feeling just wasn't the same like before. Hmm, glad that I no longer have feelings for him. I made it I guess? (:
Okok, back to nad love story. Nad didn't cry. But I feel so worried. I scared she will cry at home. Then I won't be there for her to comfort her. ): Hopefully, she won't cry. Dear, I'm always here for you ok (: I syg u byk2 uh. HAHAHA
I just heard something today. Haish. )':
Im trying hard to forget but it's not that easy. It's not as easy as how we plan it to be. It's been more than a week and each day, I always remind myself it would be a new day. But no, I end up thinking about it. I actually forgot to do something. To change my wallpaper. Pfft. And yes, now it is still the same. I will change it soon. He is still under my favourites. Guess will change that soon too.
Urghhhh. stress giler babi ni. Ingat senang eh nk tukar2 orang. I've like someone for more than a year. I've waited for someone for more than 3 years. I hope this time it won't take that long. Hoping really hard. To see that he doesn't even bother about all this anymore, I guess it's no use for me trying right? I don't know if we are actually friends at all since we're not really talking. And its like Im the one trying to find something to start a convo. Haish.
If people don't care about someone, they won't bother to read someone's blog. They won't bother to read people's status. (:
* I used to read his blog last time to see how was his life. Then, I met him. And his blog was gone. But I don't care at that point of time. Because I got him to check on his life. But now that he's gone, I've got nothing else to see. I can't care for him anymore eventhough Im hoping hard I could.If only you could trust, things wouldn't happen this way. If only I could prove, life would have been a fairytale.
Reminder to self
[ 9:23 PM ]
Dian Farhana Binte Muhammad Yazid!,
1) Jgn nk shiok sendiri.
2) Everyday is your day.
3) Stop being so hard on yourself.
4) Live as if you matter.
5) Just breathe.
6) Everything will be okay.
7) Look on the bright side.
8) Back to your happy-go-lucky lifestyle.
Regards,
Your past.
[ 8:39 PM ]
Aduhhhh, penat nye ):
Am back from the standard chartered marathon thingy. Serious damn tired. And the weather was not being nice today! Its damn scorching hot uh pls. Fuuhhh! But I shall say that this is muuuuuuuuch better den the swimming event! (:
Lucky I had a good sleep on saturday. I guess I must be very very tired for this past weeks and I took the opportunity to claim back my sleep on saturday? Hees. Guess what time I woke up? 7pm la seyy. Haha. Ish, tk senonoh seyy Dian. But understandable la k. I didn't have a good sleep since ages ago? Haha.
So, after waking up at 7 and chatted with friends at msn till 12. Get ready by 12.30 and dad sent me to amk inter. Byk la dorang punye departure kul 1am. Check2 1+ jugak. Humph. And I was like super hungry. Thanks Iqah for the croissont. And sorry I finished it all :| Thinking that there will be breakfast provided just excites me. But to my dismay, it was damn not nice uh. Dah nk basi siol. Ish, terok! -.- The lunch also the same thing. Irritating k.
Wahh, sidetracked. Okok, so the standard chartered really had a good response. Lots of participants. Got hot guys la of course :p HAHAHA. kidding2. The not nice part was our job. We handled at the baggage site. Damn stress and tiring uh. But lucky, Im with people who I actually know. So won't complain that much. lol
It ends around 2+. Wahhh, tired or what sia. More than 12 hours siol. Pfft.
Tomorrow don't feel like going to sch. But I have to go. I cannot skip anymore already la. My attendance so baaaaaaaaaad. Boo! ): And Im so not looking forward for after school. Haish. Merepek sia ni ig. Tk tau pe org dah nk ader ut. Sibok jer dgn camp camp camp. Penat sia nk layan. Nk cepat jangan nk cerewet sgt la. Smack kang. hahaha, macam paham uh dian. Step marah only. Tk menjadi siol. Eh but seriously Im damn pissed off with this ig. Malas sia nk layan. -.-
[ 11:49 PM ]
Dah malas. Dah penat. Dah give up.
[ 7:47 PM ]
Its the second week of formal wear! :D And wow, am I glad to be able to attend this week.
On Thursday, rushed to J8 after ig meeting. Shopped for formal clothes. So I bought blazer, blouse and shoes. I guess its my luck to get the cheapest and the nicest blazer :p haha. It cost 60 bucks. woohoo! (:
The total cost of my spending really breaks my heart. It cost 100++++ in total. And I will be wearing it just for a day! Urgh.
Because of this, I have to cancel my movie date with my dear Laro. Awwww. Nxt week k dear! (:
After school, had to go for ce activity that I signed up for. Vibrations thingy. Laugh Out Loud caaaaan. I had to stand on this machine and it will vibrate. Seriously, it was damn vibrating. My teeth also vibrate. My legs all itchy. And the worse part is, a cute guy was sitting RIGHT in front of me because he needs to check my blood pressure. Wahlaoweii. The minute he volunteer to check my blood pressure, my heartbeat stop. Literally stop. Because I had this item on my hand that can track my heartbeat. It was running on well till it came to a point where he volunteered. I checked my heartbeat. It was 0. Serious! HAHAHA
Then, after that vibrations which ends at 5, had to rushed home. My ezlink had finished and I had no money to buy the ticket. Waited for mum to transfer money to my bank. Damn suay uh. Reached home around 6.30 and took a nap till 7 and then rushed to work.
After worked, stayed for awhile for the "party". Had some drinks and play cards. A few people got drunk. I was so damn scared over there uh. Then, around 4, I really cannot tahan. I was damn tired and sleepy. Msg-ed mum to ask dad to pick me up.
And guess what? I slept throughout my saturday. I woke up at almost 7pm. At first I thought I woke up early at 7 am. Den I received sms, and saw the time. Damn shocked. Haha. Yeah, I guess I must be very tired.
And later had to go AMK at 1am for pick up. I volunteered for Standard chartered marathon thingy. And must be there at 2am. Pity my dad to send me all the way there. So just asked him to send me to AMK. Shall look forward for another tiring day again.
When I meant spend the last month of 2009 to the fullest, I seriously don't mean till like this. Like sleeping 2-3 hours everyday. Fuhhhhh, what a month! And I still have more to look forward for! Saaaaaaad of what?!
[ 10:25 PM ]
Wassup everyone? (:
Another hectic week for me!
So I worked for the past 2 days. And yesterday, Emily came down. She cried. Then, everyone started to cry. I was the odd one out. I was sad but please la, I cannot cry. Not heartless okaaaay but Im just not the crying type la. Tsktsk.
Its confirmed that Ice3 will be closing down and moved to Bedok. Emily will be transferred there. As for the rest of the thomson staff, they will either work in Garden or Bedok. Pfffffft. So far can -.-
Okok, let's just forget about it. Make me emotional here. Anyway, yesterday me and Meira decided to leave Wenn Jet alone at ice3 while we go thomson plaza. Thought of buying KFC but its already closed. In fact, the whole shopping centre closed. It was still 10 + btw. Pffttt.
So, we went back to ice3 and in the end, ordered macs. wait wait wait, finally the delivery man came. Fuhh, handsome dok. Meira ape lagi, start uh mentel dier. Then, when he was gon, Meira so hyper. Then, I told her keep wishing he would come back. BUTTTTT, he did not la of course. BUTTTTTTT, here's the exciting part... he msg me (: HAHAHA.
Because when they asked for the number, we gave my hp number. And he thought it was meira. So I replied saying that he's got the wrong person and I gave him meira's number. And then, he replied back say want to kenal2 with me oso. Mintak kene smack can? Muker handsome2, skali playboy peeee. Ni uh laki. Ader muker, take advantage. -.-
I was so damn not interested. Not because he was like so gatal, but because..ya, i don't want to kenal2 with anyone at the moment. Hmm.. But meira was like, eh why not we play around with him since he is like so damn gatal. At first I rejected the idea but after getting tired of arguing, i give in. But I don't really entertain him uh. Pfffft.
Oh! Today shopped with mum at j8 for formal wear tomorrow. I was so damn excited buy this and that. Until when I was in the bus, calculating the stuff and actually find out that it exceed 100 bucks. My heart dropped to the ground siaaaaa. My money wasted on something that are meant to be used for half a day?! bloody hell. Now sad olredi. Now Im considering whether I should buy the guitar or not. Haish. Bodoh nye Dian Farhana. ):
Ok, my eyes are daaaaamn bad right now. I can barely open my eyes uh. Its been... weeks since I had a good sleep? As in a healthy kind of sleep. I've been sleeping 2-3 hours each day. Omg. So bad dian. So bad. -.-
[ 12:08 PM ]
Its lunch time and Im currently in E6 doing some ce activity. Vibrations. Go ahead and laugh. HAHAHA
It's december everyoneeeeeeeeeeeee! (: Nothing to be excited about actually. But hey, lets just enjoy the remaining days of 2009 to the fullest. Don't brood over something. And well some things are meant to be ignored! (:
Ok, let's start with yesterday..
Hmm, things are fine I guess? Work was exciting + sad. Exciting because I got my paaaaay (: Sad because Emily is gonna transfer to Bedok. And our place is going to close down. Which means, I would probably have to work at Garden = DIE.
Something happened yesterday. There was this 3 malay woman..40+ liddat.. they look like minah style. Haha. Ok, that was not the point.. well, anyway, they came in to have their dinner. They were damn friendly I tell you. Then suddenly one of them ask for my name. I was like... -.-'.. and nervous also la. Coz they look like some prostitute kind like that. Then they keep on looking at me which scares me more. So after they had their dinner, they went out and hang around there for quite sometime. Here comes the exciting part, they call me to go outside. I was like damn scared uh. When I when out, one of them say they want to complain. My face change siaaaa. hahaha. But turns out they were just joking. Then one of them grab my hand! ....
They give me $5 la seyyyy. HAHAHAAHAHA! Thriller story eh eh eh :p Till now, I don't know why la they gave me that money. hmm..
Oh well, ok guys. I shall have proper updates soon aites? Things have been quite rough lately. Cheers! (:
I bet
[ 12:01 PM ]
I bet you didn’t know that I am terrified of the dark, and every time I think of you, I smile. I bet you don’t know that I hate thunderstorms but love dancing in the rain. Or how much I laugh with my friends & how much I truly enjoy being happy. I bet you don’t know how many tears I’ve cried just for you, or how much I doubt myself every day. I bet you don’t know how ticklish I am or how I can’t make decisions. & how it drives me crazy when you look into my eyes. I bet you didn’t know that I would do anything to be with you. But mostly I bet you didn’t know how much I love you.
& I bet half the things you don't remember are half the things I won't forget