Excuse me while I fall apart
[ 7:28 PM ]
As some of you might know, Im at the worst state right now. Yes, my life is falling apart just when I see that things are getting better. So people, do excuse my attitude, my blame and my LIFE right now.
Firstly I would like to apologize to my one and only mum. Things are rough on us these days. I know that we used to be closed and share almost everything together. Im sorry what I have said and truly, I did regret what I just said. Just that, at this point of time, I was being too emotionally angry that I just let out everything without even thinking the consequences. Maybe I need a little time to cool down. And I'll accept whatever you want to regard me as. I'll accept if you won't forgive me. Because, me as a child has no right to put a blame on a mum.
Secondly, I wanted to apologize to my winterlove, Fatin. I am extremely sorry. Im sorry if I were to blame you even though you are just trying to help me. I was just being to emotional la and I just can't think straight. Thanks for everything k winterlove. And thanks for that sweet post on your blog.
I just have a lot to think about these days. UT are coming in days away. I've yet to study. I need to think about family. I need to do the camp proposal. I need to think about the camp training which I don't even know whether I really want to go on or not. Im just a human and I can't possibly think all this at one time in my small brain. And due this, I just let out my anger on other ppl like Fatin. Sorry again k Fatin.
I know that in class I might just be a cheerful person. People ask, I'll say Im okay. People see me laughing but really, I just feel like letting out any moment. Those who might read this, I hope you guys understand that when at any point of time, IF I were to explode, or not being myself, I hope you guys would really excuse me and not start to hate me. Really, Im not that kind of person. I just can't think properly when things are falling apart. Im not used to it so yeah.
[ 10:00 PM ]
I just realised I didn't update my blog for a week until yanyan tagged me in the tagboard. HAHA.
Firstly, I want you guys to click that picture to enlarge it so that you can see it CLEARLY. HAHAHA. CHEATERS, YOU WIN THAT OK!
My class gerek la. HAHA. Know why? Because almost everyone play bejeweled blitz. The last class nobody play then like not fun. This class, they download me the cheat engine for me sammore. How to cheat? Find out yourself! :D
Let's start from the eve of deepavali. On the eve, that night my family went to Little India. For what? Just to join in the fun. LOL. Its extremely crowded but still cannot win the atmosphere of geylang during Hari Raya times. We bought practically nothing which is sort of lame. -.-
On deepavali, working. Omgaaaah. Its the first time I ever encounter such a crowd. Our shop which usually was empty and out of 17 tables, 3-5 tables is filled; but on that day, the crowd was so massive that we even run out of tables and chairs. That crowded ok. I tell you, I almost fainted at that moment. Lucky, on that day my job was only to take order which is the most relaxing job. Heh (:
Oh yes, my new hp spoiled. Ah good la, just a few days old, my itchy hand don't know press what, become spoil. Since it was still under warranty, sent it to repair. Guess what? It took 8 days to repair the damn it hp uh. And when we collected it, we tried the hp infront of the salesmen. It was not working but he said it is because the battery is low. We went home, tried to charge it but it is still not working. Yesterday, my parents came down to the place and talked to the salesman. And FUCK (pardon this), that bloody asshole (pardon again) didn't admit that he told us it was because of battery low. Instead, he pinpoint to me. He say its my fault. Ape lagi, My mum screamed at him uh. That was kind of embarrasing uh. But still, he's a jerk uh. After a long argument, we left the phone for repair again. So, just wait for it. If it happens again, that jerk seriously need some dog shit stuffed up at his mouth. So now what phone am I using? Iphone. Fuck this phone. Omg, I've got to stop using profanities.
Workplace is also being problematic. I was having a flu so I sms one of my colleagues and told him that Im sick. Obviously, people won't want to see someone with runny nose holding their plates with foos. Being such a fussy colleague, he asked for mc. Never in my working life as a PART-TIMER, was being asked for an mc. Told my mum and she msg-ed him. She asked if I was actually being paid if I were to produce an MC. His replied was that he need the mc as a prove that Im sick because it is hard to find staff last minute. Know what irritates me? Why is it that other part-timers can easily give some excuse last minute and able to get away from it, and he would ask me to replace them, But when I am sick, he gives a lot of excuses. Tsktsk. In the end, my mum brought me to a clinic and surprisingly, I get 2 days mc. Omg or what. HAHA. On that day jugak, my mum went to my workplace and meet my colleague one-to-one. She slam the mc on the table and tell him directly that I am seriously sick. My mum lol-ed all the way when she tell me how that guy's impression look like. HAHAHA.
Today, early in the morning, someone just have to spoil my mood. People, its ok when we already promised to meet a certain time, we reached late. I don't mind because me too, sometimes are late than the promised time. But, if it is too often, it gives a bad impression on the people who waits for you. Nobody likes to wait, am I right? So what makes you so special that we have to wait for you all the time? I would have left these kind of people uh. But today, its bad for me to left my friend alone, waiting for another party to come. So, whether I like it or not, I will wait with her. And of course, Im a person who keeps my anger within me. I will just be quiet. But when being asked, that's it, my anger all come out. Best la kan tunggu orang macam budak bodoh. BEST SEKALI.
Lastly, seriously eh, I need to put some video recorder or something on Fatin's laptop so I know what did she and my mum mengumpat about me. Wahlaoweii, how can like this. I also want to gossip. But everytime they gossip about me. Sammore, my mum tell the embarrassing moments about me. Tsktsk. Lucky Fatin is a girl. If she talk to a guy, especially HIM, I will sure run away from Singapore uh.
Ok done. Bye. :D
[ 10:22 PM ]
I should prolly noted myself on what I wanted to blog. Now that I actually have time to blog, I forgotten what I actually wanted to tell. -.- Not surprising.
Today I was being an irritating _______. Ohmygahhh, I scream like some maniac outside the class and being such a childish brat spraying mango juice on NADIAH DIYANA. This is what you will have to face when your next door neighbour is belo and selenge friend. HAHA. Oops. Well, I did something clumsy today. I sprayed the mango juice towards nad but I actually sprayed on ryan's jacket. Then, I also sprayed at someone's laptop in nad's class. Woahaaaa, I damn panicked man.
Alot of things happened uh actually.
Class was getting really better. I think I could like this class. Except that some are still hiding in their shells, not wanting to come out. I envy Iqah's class alot. Got cute guys sey. I have a crush on this guy. HAHA. Ok, that's lame. But from the details I gotten about him, I know he was a really nice guy. A nice cute
geeky guy. But of course, nothing serious. I am still faithfully waiting for ________.
Can liddat eh..HAHA
Oh yes, MONDAY. That day I eventually realised how
enthusiastic my class is towards class. Its monday, so it was math module. Guess what? 3/4 of the class left the lesson halfway. Should I actually laugh about this or what? Of course, Im part of the 1/4 student. And that 1/4 students end up doing only ONE ppt. And guess what again? Each group have to do ppt in the end. Why? Because the faci is new and there's another faci who is like invigilating her and he told us to do. LOL. Wrong timing uh pls.
I think that should be it. I seriously forgot what I wanted to blog about. Ok, fast forward to my work. It was hell lot of fun uh. I love to work with Suresh. Know why? We actually finish worked very very early and seriously, I don't feel tired. Wonder why they all don't like to work with him. Anyway, since it's halloween, the shop changed to that theme. They wanted to make the shop as scary as ever. But EPIC FAIL. It ended up cute uh. What's with the smiley face pumpkin, faceless cat, batman bat? HAHAHA. I LMAO when I helped them decorating the shop.
Hehe, long post aye. tsktsk. I should update regularly la. hoho. Ok bye! :D
[ 11:57 AM ]
My second update on semester 2. First week was really hectic so I barely got time to update my blog.
I worked 4 days straight since last sunday from 8 to 3 am. Then, slept for 2 hours and back to school. Thursday was my off day and yet I still got a call from them asking me to work. Irritating please. Of course, I cannot and gave a reason that I end my school late and have to take my sim card (I'll talk about this later). That was not a lie obviously. I really did end school late since I have SHL meeting. And afterwards, going to PS to take my sim card. Some more, I was damn tired. Imagine sleeping for 2 hours each day for 4 days, and you have to go to school and work? Hell uh, then want me to work on thursday some more. For next week schedule, I actually gave the exact days that I want to work instead of asking them to do it for me because I will end up working a lot of days. -.-
Ok, back to the sim card story. This is what actually happens. Well, I don't bring my valuables to toilet. But on the SECOND day of school, LAST few minutes before school ends, I actually brought my hp along to the toilet. Actually, I was about to put back my hp on my table, but I thought since I had it with me right now and being LAZY to put it back, I brought it along with me. And guess what? Me being the most forgetful person who always forgets thing, actually forget to take my hp when Im done with my business. I happily go back to the class and then, I realised my hp was missing. I ran back to the toilet, and
voila, gone. The thing is, it was barely 5 minutes that I realised my phone was gone. Maybe maximum 10 mins top. And yet, it was gone. Called, and that fucking
animal (I resist to call her a human) off my hp. Such an irresponsible
animal. Surely, HUMANS, please take the initiative to give back what is not rightfully yours to the rightfully owner. OK, PLEASE?
So thursday, took my sim card. Same number k ppl. Please msg me so I can save your number. And friday, bought a new phone. The cheapest phone that had everything on it. Sony ericsson W810i. $248 cash. I guess that was the cheapest uh since I ask the person and he say this was it. I bought it with my own money. If I were to wait for my parents, I would prolly get it on my birthday which would be next year. Sad uh because my phone not like among the top phone and sammore like cheapskate only. But nevermind, alhamdullilah lah I have a phone now. Its been a tough time for me without a phone. Hard to contact people and so on. tsktsk.
School. was ok I think. Getting better each day. But it was still not the same with the old classmates. New class was not really hyper and so on. Maybe it was because it was only the starting week. So just see what would happen on the following week then. :D
[ 11:41 AM ]
Its lunch time right now and Im like alone in class. So I take this chance to blog about new semester.
First day, I could only give one expression. -_____________________________-"
Yes, early in the morning already got alot of problem. First I have a hard time deciding which clothes to wear which took almost half an hour. Then, while combing my hair, I forgot where I put my hairband which took forever for me to find and end up taking one which I found in the toilet. After I had my hairband, I lost my clip. Pathetic righttt.
Then, in the mrt, my stomach plak yg problem. Like suay la. Everytime never make problem, then first day of school macam2 hal. Iqah also same stomach problem as me. Once reach woodlands interchange, ape lagi, lari ke toilet la. Hahaha.
Journey to sch was ok..but once I reach school, problem start again. First, I have to walk to my building ALONE since my friends all are from other building. Those who same building as me was not that close. Then, reached the lift side, it was damn packed uh pls. Guess what? I have to take the staircase. Yay me! I was breathless and my head was spinning once I reached the 6th level. For god sake, it was crazy to take staircase up to 6 lvl uh pls.
Lunch time, damn embarrassing moment. I was waiting for Fatin at W1 the hill side but I decided to walk to W3 by shelter. And there was this malay guy walking beside me. Then, at W4 building, there was this 2 malay girls who look exactly like Iqah and her friend. Well, from far they do uh. Then I heard them shouted something like "Ian!.." alot of times. It was far so I thought they were calling my name. Then they waving their hands towards my direction. So I waved back with full of confidence uh. My expression tk perlu sia that time. They then ran towards me. Lucky I didn't run back or I won't come back to school anymore sia. Know what? They were actually referring to the guy beside me. His name is AlfIAN. Wtfffff.
Gerek eh my first day of school. Haish.
Anyway, classmate was okok. Still kind of quiet but kecohrable at the same time. Depends on the situation. Great that I have friends around my class so not that lonely. HEHE.
[ 5:40 PM ]
Friday was the carnival day. It was a success. :D Well, my groups are the Bears team. And we kept changing games every single time. Hehe. The kids are very very obedient and cute. Uh, most of them uh. I love the rainbow kids. VERY cute. And yes, there are people who are around 40+ years of age. But of course, they act like some 6 yrs old. But they are very nice indeed :D
After the event, of course we helpers would want to have some fun for ourselves. See that picture above? Only available at pasar malam funfair and there was age limit for that. Since we are old and are not allowed to play it anymore, we grab the chance to play it on that day! We bounce around inside like as we were deprived from childhood. HEH.
Half complete food. HAHA
stupid extra sis's shoes.
Yesterday was open house. As usual, alot of people. But this year was great. People came at perfect timing. Once another family gone, another came. Unlike any other years, where everyone bombard my house at one time. Hehehe. Thanks to Haikal and Iqah who came to my house. Nina, sorry eh..too many people uh..my mum scared the lauks not enough. Haha. Zul, its ok, next year can come ok. (: And lastly, Aizat, how can you forget my open house?! Nevermind, next year I will remind you and make you countdown the days. Hahaha :D
Up there, see that guy in black? That is my fiance. HEHE. Ok, some people will know what I mean. And yeah, me and sis camwhored since we were bored.
Today, will be working at 8pm till 3am. Then maybe 1 hr of nap and off to school. Just hope that I won't dozz off during lesson. Tomorrow is math. I need to pay attention. And there is new classmates to make new friends with. Wish me luck! :D
[ 6:05 PM ]
I just realised that each module, I have different people in my class. Hoho. So my classmates was not fixed uh? lol. Now having open house. Busy beeeeee. Will update soon.
Semester 2
[ 11:35 PM ]
Hehe. My class alot of malay. Hehehehe. What a module to start the first day of the semester -.-
MATH
E36F?!
[ 2:16 PM ]
So most of them know what is their new classes and classmates. Me, sadly is till under maintenance. Boohoo. Luckily, someone from my orientation group is the same class as me. Phewwwww. And guess what, my class is still the same! E36F. Like wtheeeeeelllll.
But that should be a good thing too, since im always lost. So I wouldn't be wandering around school looking for my building on my first day. But still, I won't have that "feeling" of having new classmates and new semester. It would pretty much feel the same. Urggggh. Not fair seyy. Other people change class, mine still the same. Of course, there are good memories in that class. BUT there are some bad memories too y'knw. -.-