[ 9:48 AM ]
aaaah. okay so tmr last paper.
bio/phy mcq.
and art is officially o-v-e-r.
its a stress-is-over-and-im-happy kind of feeling.
i slept 2 days straight and only woke up when nearly buka.
imagine letting out all those tiredness. ohh, so wonderful.
and due to this, i didn't study for my poa paper2 and bio.
ohh yeah, i didn't. so what?
im expecting bad results for prelims.
but i have to buck up for o levels.
HAVE TO HAVE TO!
and alot of things happen for this past few days.
one thing is that i did some stupid stuff which i regretted?
know what i do? slashed my myself.
stupid ehh? wonder wat i was tinking at that time.
and damn, its painful ar neneh.
and know why i do it? its the lamest reason a person could give.
my mum scolded me.
lame eh? not lame, its a down syndrome thought.
anyway, we fought alot. ALOT.
we fought like every single day.
but we're still close? weird relationship.
ok forget about that stupid moment of my life.
next is, we will be celebrating hari raya in hospital.
erggh..how fun can it be ehh? LOL.
[ 2:02 AM ]
i tink i have gazillions white hair olredi.
coz of stress on particularly ART.
so trying to finish up on weekends.
im blogging rite now with a valid reason.
although im like VERY busy. as in VERRRRY BUSY, i had to blog.
know why? coz im currently un-busy at the moment and its all bcoz of spray glue.
bought the spray glue at popular and wow, it was broken.
hah! neneh mcnugget.
and i can't cramp in any notes at this time.
so yeah i blogged.
preps are finished once im done with the colour schemes.
don't care olredi lar.
i haven't even started on art prelims.
and i was warned by ms woon not to skip the prelims.
neneh mcnugget.
art students were all not prepared for it too.
wonder wat will happen on monday.
and my prelims have been kinda baaaaaad so far.
as in B-A-D. BAD.
didn't even study for anything.
all thanks to art ar.
like as if it was my future.
well, will study for other subjects.
which i tink won't help me afterall since i've taken most of the paper.
won't be studying physics which falls on the same date as art prelims AND the dateline.
after that, still have bio, poa paper2 aaaand i think dats all.
and and can sleep olredi. yay!
hahahahah.
there's alot to tell actually.
hmmm....ohh yeah.
me,fatin,syafiqah and kaushalya had plans for our future.
yes, for our FUTURE.
well here's our plans.
we will open up a cafe at orchard road and its not any ordinary cafe.
errkk..its samting special which is a top secret.
won't revealed it here in case some inconsiderate people copied our ideas.
and and we all will be living at penthouse on the same level.
and our future child will be bestfriends.
take note, mine is 2 son and 2 daughter. hahahahaha!
sweet eh our plan. will always be together. (:
and of course, we will keep that promise.
and i really hope it will come true. eeeeeeek. nice rite nice rite. hehe(:
[ 9:50 PM ]
hairy. hairy. hairy.
ahhh. nvm.
well, today math and poa paper 1.
damnit. damnit. damnit.
as usual, don't aaaaaaaaask.
argh. why must the paper be so hard?
and why do i have mental-block when its exam time?
maybe the paper is not hard, and its just that i don't study.
but hell to my practices, where has all those formulas i memorised gone to.
and surprisingly, it ran away when i needed it the most.
sometimes i wonder if i could actually make it for o levels.
and thanks to some people who says that our year is going to be hard.
making me more freak out. extremely freak out.
maybe its true. that means i have to worked harder.
dianfarhanabintemuhammadyazidmestiworkhardhardforherownfuture!
[ 1:53 PM ]
BRAIN-FAG.
today malay and eng paper 2.
eng-ahhh.was kinda easy. but we'll see wats the result.
malay-super hard giler babi boddoh. and i think im the first to sleep.
one hour of sleeping. in air-conditioned hall.
sleeping beauty ah. and i tink i had 5 dreams. haha.
i had a hard time writing since my fingers were plastered.
thumb, the point2 finger, and the sides.
all of this thanks to paper cutting for art.
trend or wat plaster everywhere. heh.
tmr after social studies have art.
ohh finally finished my first layer. yay!
[ 1:40 PM ]
i've this weird feelings inside me.
and if wat i assumed is true, i beg to stop.
coz wat i feels is wrong.
u're not the one. even if i want to.
you can't be my mister perfect.
im sorry.
[ 10:19 PM ]
i need to cry but i can't.
im procrastinating. and yet i don't want to change.
dian, times flying and o levels 30+ more days!
stop dreaming. this is reality.
wanna fail is it?!
erghh. ohh, can i even do it?
math. give me a c6. atleast.
please.
[ 9:58 AM ]
me in art roooooom(:
teacher not here. haha. ok.
so this week, my class like lifeless.
many ppl neva came. haiyo.
if i know, i oso neva come.
monday, 4 ppl absent.
tuesday, 2.
wednesday, 5.
today, 5.
wats happening?
4e4 is not like this. always full attendance. regularly.
only 1 or 2 whos absent.
ok forget about that. its nothing to be concern about.
well, yesterday went hospital to see nenek.
den after that went woodlands to buy food for sahur.
i was so sleepy that my eyes were half-open when i was walking.
i walked kinda slow. mama and farah walked with me.
ayah was waaaaaay in front.
den suddenly hear one malay gangster shouting,
den we were like..wahh wahh fight ar..
so kepo2 see..and guess who the gangster quarelling with?
my wonderful dad. hahahaha.
so the story was like this...
the place was crowded. ayah pushed the guy aside. the guy not happy. make such a big fuss. den shout wat pushed2 all. all kinds of vulgarities. and my wonderful dad neva said sorry. he just ignore and walked away..then he turned back and actually shouted back,eh relax uhs.
WOW. wonderful ehh..asking for trouble lar him. lucky that gangster neva do anything coz his fren stopped him. den my wonderful mother still can look at them up and down and said in a sarcastic way, wat sia ur dad do until want to make such a big fuss. that gangster den shout vulgarities again. haiyo. and i was so embarrassed lar. muker peng giler babi. wonderful parents ehk. gangster..no wonder this wonderful daughter oso gangster negative zero, rite fatin and kau? hahaha. ok inside joke. (:
prelims tmr. englsih and malay paper 1. i think.
prepared? erkkkkkkkkkk. haha.
dun bother asking lar ehh.
and today september 11! haha. got one incident rite??
the bombing thing?? i think so..hhaha. ok dah bye.
[ 11:47 PM ]
he's happy dian.
you should too.
move on.
[ 10:22 PM ]
today is the last day of the 1 week holidays.
which means - few more days to prelims.
- a month or less to o levels.
im damn it freaking stress with art.
damnit stoopid teacher who is not sastified with every single thing.
it practically took most of my time.
INCLUDING MY SLEEPING TIME.
mama was screaming her head off because of this.
stopped her from calling that "dear" teacher.
im really not looking forward for tomorrow.
although missed my friends, classmates, "teachers" deeply.
english lesson is 2 periods=1hour30mins=HELL.
english homework still not done.
and fuck, i don't even understand wat im suppose to do with the statements.
science remedials after sch. not sure physics or bio.
but still, both were not my interest.
and i can't skip physics anymore! damnit.
my brain is going to explode any moment.
as i said, im stress.
mama is nyeh-nyeh-ing all the way.
do this do that, think waaat, i so free?
ok dah dian, stop complaining.
now diam. k bye.
[ 2:38 PM ]
okay, i dunno who's frenster i take this from.
but it was so funny, that i really need to upload this.
hahahahahahahahahahahaa.
okay seriosuly its funny.
hahahahahahahahahhaahahhaah!
[ 1:33 PM ]
i keep telling them im okay.
im okay with everything and i've moved on.
but truthfully, im not and i dunno why.
i keep telling myself to forget everything.
its a lesson for me to learnt and not to make the same mistake.
but each time i went to friendster, the first thing i went to is his profile.
i keep wishing he would forget wat i said.
wishing he would forgive me with all my mistake.
wishing everything would start anew and were together back.
sadly it was only a wish where only in fairytales would come true.
it hurts to see him moving on. happier as ever.
and im still the same, still blaming myself for that stupid message.
should i still blame myself?
should i blame myself for asking for it and i get it.
should i blame myself to asked for break up when i didn't mean to.
fuck dian. its ur fault.
and its too late for me to say sorry.
and the wishes i made, i had to forget it.
coz he now belong to someone else.
and i shouldn't be in between them.
i hope they would last forever eventhough it hurts to see.
there are tons of guys out there, dian.
give them a chance.
should i?
[ 1:24 PM ]
am back from poa class.
as usual, went back home learning nothing.
was practically daydreaming and chatting.
haiya dian, only noe how to waste time.
heh.
well, didn't went for math class.
coz i KNOW, i won't study.
so might as well dun go.
and im damnit hungry. so spent time at home much better.
heeeeeeeehee(:
[ 8:58 AM ]
ohh stoopid poa class.
and stoopid dian for not asking ppl wat time it starts.
so the story started yesterday when yachen and huiping msg-ed me.
say poa was held in ava room.
asked nisa what time it ends.
and wonderful dian didn't as k wat time it starts.
so when nisa says around 11 or 12,
wonderful dian tought it would start at 8.
so wahh, semangat giler babi woke up at 6.30 AM.
and then walking to the bus stop, called iqah.
asked her where is she. and she said - im still at home.
and i asked wat time uhs it started.
"ohh, it starts at 10".
damnit. damnit.
lucky haven't board the bus.
well so here i am, blogging.
and waiting for the time to go for poa lesson.
dian semangat ar nak p class.
HAAH! WATEVA..
im just doing it for the sake of doing it.
and for my own sake.
and for my family sake.
and my future sake.
haha. lame.
[ 11:36 PM ]
HELLO NISAAAAAA.
HAHAHA.
DIDN'T KNOW THAT U KNOW MY BLOG EHH..
HAHA. (:
okay, im bored.
[ 8:59 PM ]
CLASS CELEBRATION
haha, riyadh, caught u in my camera(:
guess wat? saw this in tan tock seng hospital. scary siol.
[ 8:48 PM ]
teachers day,
it was not a fun celebration for us art student.
we had to spent most of the time in art room.
aces day was missed.
recess, had celebration in class.
we bought cake for mrs lai.
and busted riduan eat my flower chocolate!
screamed at the top of my lung and i was on the verge of crying.
like neneh. am still angry with him.
he owed me 1546784+178+748947 chocolate flowers ahh!
managed to watch half of the celebration in hall.
most was singing. and yeah it was L TO THE A TO THE M TO THE EEEEEEEE!
but there are a few who have a nice voice(:
dance was kinda good. was impressed by the performance.
and yeah after that straight to art room.
ohh hell, art is suffering my life.
my grandmother is stil sick. pray hard she would be better(:
fasting has started. omg. how fast was that?
and it would be o levels soon.
time seems to be running fast.
sunday went to bras basah to buy for art stuffs and photocopy my final work.
went with riyadh.
he actually really wants to help me carry broom and mop!
hahahahaa. nevermind, inside joke eh riyadh.
you know i know. (:
photocopy shop was closed. so just bought coloured paper.
den spent time outside national library.
chat2. den thought of taking bus together.
but my wonderful dad called me say wanna fetch me.
and riyadh, bout that stuffs you said.
i know lah wat u trying to say. haha.
i oso remember. but yeah tongue-tied.
hahahahaha. soon k (: