A date with sweetheart ♥
[ 10:02 PM ]
31 May 2010, definitely a special date for me. Finally, after almost half a year, I finally had a real date with my boyfriend. (:
It doesn't started out well since we had a fight the night before, as always. Haha. But we're fine after that, as always. So we end up watching Shrek Happily Ever After 3D since The Last Song was only in the morning. It was okaaaay. A cute cute love story. heh!
Afterwhich, we decided to have lunch only to get a message from my mum wanting me to buy mascara and eyeliner. -.- And I didn't really have enough money with me.
We end up going bedok and my boyf only ate the nachos we bought. Awww, sorry syg! Oh well, it wasn't really a perfect date to start or end with but it works for me. At least, finally I got to spend a day with him, only him.
However, we didn't really spend that long since my sweetheart is sick. I forced him to go home and have a good rest.
Dear sweetheart,
You make me the most happiest girl on Earth today. ♥
[ 12:40 AM ]
Apparently, Im so used to going out with plans ready right before my eyes. Im so used to guys planning out dates and bring me wherever they planned to. I end up happy. Im not a planner. Really, Im not. And I hate it when someone wants me to plan it out. Don't matter if I went out as groups or as a couple or what, I just don't plan. Ever wonder why I don't go out alone? Because I don't plan. Get it?
5 things your girlfriend won't tell you
[ 10:54 PM ]
1. We like the chase – you chasing us.Yep, it’s sad but true that when a guy is too eager to catch us we wonder why. What is wrong with this guy? Why is he so clingy? Is he a control freak? Is he a serial dater? A player with many girlfriends on the go? Is he insane? It’s not that we don’t want to be caught, we do, we just don’t want to feel trapped and when things happen too fast trapped is how we feel. We need to be sure of our feelings and of our attraction before we can step off the racetrack and give up the chase. You need to woo us to make us yours. Some guys lay out traps, saying all the right things and meaning none of them, in an attempt to woo us and this gives way to our biggest fear; falling prey to an insincere guy who is more about the game than being in a relationship. For this reason even once we’re yours, even once we are sure of your feelings and you are sure of ours, we need to still feel a little bit of the chase. When you chase us we feel like you want us and are willing to do some work to be with us and we don’t want that feeling to go away just because you’ve caught us.
2. When we say we’re “OK” or that things are “fine” the opposite is probably true.Girls are communicators. It is hardwired in to our psyches to talk and talk and talk some more whenever there is discord or conflict. So if you sense there’s a problem and gather the courage to ask us and we respond with a “fine” or “it’s ok” or some other sentence with less than 7 (short) words chances are good that we really want to talk. So, you think, what’s a guy to do? You ask a question, you get an answer, and you plan based on that answer. Who wants to read between the lines or guess what is really going on? What a waste of time, right? Wrong! When girls pull the short answers out during a conversation it is because we want you to put the effort in to getting us to open up. It comes from a place of feeling like you don’t usually care what we have to say so we want you to put some effort in to getting us to talk so we can be sure we will be listened to. Now those perceptive guys among you may have your hands up right now waiting to ask the obvious question… if a girl feels like she’s not usually heard isn’t that the REAL problem? Yes, yes it is, and one little talk won’t stop that feeling of being marginalized. In psychology we call this a learned response, a behavior that does not come naturally but rather has been developed through a process called social conditioning. You may very well be the most attentive boyfriend since the dawn of time but if her previous guys made her feel insignificant or unheard you’ll have to help her carry that baggage. Heck, you’ll have to help her unpack it and put it away! So when your girl replies with a curt little answer to your questions don’t take her at face value. Calmly and gently ask her a few more times. Once she feels like you will hear her nature will take over and, voila! You’ll be communicating.
3. We want you to have your guy time.It is such a myth that girls don’t like to let their guy just hang with the boys. It's a terrible lie perpetrated by relationship-phobes throughout the ages. It is totally untrue that we want you to give up your life to be with us. Think of it this way… when we met you and fell for you, you were (hopefully) single and your friends were a big part of your life. Take your friends away and a big piece of the guy we fell for goes with them. So we want you to keep your guy time. We know you need your friends and truth be told we need our friends too. That being said, obviously when you are single you have lots of spare time to spend with friends but when you are in a relationship some of that time is going to be taken up by your significant other (A.K.A. us). That is only normal. It is normal for you to need your guy time and it is normal for you to want to spend time with us. If you find the right balance the guy-time issue quickly becomes a non-issue. It is when we feel like you don’t make as much time for us as you do for them or that you resent being away from your friends when you are with us that the stereotypical “girlfriend verses the friends” scenario takes the stage. It’s all about balance. Spending time with your friends or with us will never be an issue as long as there is a balance and as long as we never feel that they mean more to you than we do or that they come always first.
4. We want to know your friends but aren’t so sure you need to know ours.I’m not going to lie; this is hypocrisy in its most raw form. We want you to bring us around your friends, we want to know them and we want them to like us, but we aren’t quite as crazy about you knowing our friends. The why of this is as simple as it is irrational and here it is… we want to know your boys so we can understand the kinds of things they may get you to do when we’re not around. In short, will they encourage you to cheat on us, will they get you doing reckless and dangerous things, and will they help you engage in self-destructive activities? What we want to know is if they will be good or bad influences on you. We also want to create a buffer; we want your friends to like us so that they won’t want you to lose us. If there is no tension between your friends and us then we don’t need to fear them asking you to choose between love and friendship. Now on the flip side, we don’t really want you getting all chummy with our friends because we don’t want them to fill you in on all of our dirty little secrets. As previously noted girls are talkers by nature and we don’t want them to let something slip that may make you raise an eyebrow in our direction. We also fear, but will never admit fearing, you wanting one of our friends more than you want us. It’s bad enough to lose your guy to another girl but when that girl was once a friend, well, the sting is even sharper. So allow us this hypocrisy. It’s irrational, that's true, but it’s also quite harmless.
5. We worry that other girls look better now that you are in a relationship.Mike nailed the core of every girlfriend's relationship insecurity on the head when he brought up the GIGS (Grass Is Greener Syndrome). The idea that life is better on the other side is one of the most destructive forces in relationship world and girls feel that guys fall for it way too often. It is a great fear of ours that once you can’t have other girls you will suddenly want them all. It leads to a lot of unfounded jealousy brought on by innocent comments on your part or casual non-flirtatious conversations with other girls. So what’s a guy to do? In a perfect world you’d stop interacting with other girls altogether but our rational super-ego knows that’s not realistic. What you need to do is follow these three simple rules; 1) never pay more attention to another girl than you do to your girlfriend, 2) never comment over and over how hot/cool/nice/fun another girl is, and 3) if you meet a great girl while you’re in a relationship hook her up with one of your buddies (also known as taking her off the market and getting her out of our face). And should you ever really get the itch to jump the fence and live life on the other side... just do it! Don’t lead us on, don’t cheat on us, don’t sneak around, just end the relationship. If it ends up being a GIGS fueled mistake… oh well, consider it a hard lesson learned and leave us alone... we won't want you back anyway!'
I absolutely agree!! with no 3.. HAHA
Alhamdullilah
[ 10:58 PM ]
Shits happened in relationships. Its unavoidable. But to make it last, both have to stay strong.
And so, another new chapter begin in us. Us being together. Starting all over again. Yes, we are one again now.
This wouldn't have happen without the help of Izzah Nazurah. We owe her big time. Thanks darling (:
It paid for the bucket of tears I cried the whole night and half of the day today. We talked things out and get a clear explaination from our dearest miss Izzah Nazurah. Things are clearer now. Everything's okay. (:
Dear sweetheart,
We have gone through lots of shits. But I do hope you remember the moments where we are on cloud nine. Just remember that no matter how tough our relationship can get, I will never give up on you. No matter how hurtful my actions are, remember why you still hold on till now.
I know things get out of hand. Patience have limits. But do remember, everyone's has the same feelings. And by that, it includes me. Whenever you feel like giving up, remember all those talks you had on me when I was on the verge of giving up. The feeling, the fear you had when I showed signs of leaving you, same goes to me. I felt those fear.
Im glad we're starting all over again. I can't imagine us on separate ways. we've gone through so much that you've become part of my life; you're part of me. When you're gone, half of me is gone too. You're my other half, and no matter how worse the situations are, I will always need you in my life.
And with this, I hope this time round, we work real hard for this. I'll give you time to change. I'll try my best to understand you. I'll be more patient than before. And I hope you do the same to me too.
I love you, always and forever, eternity and beyond. ♥
[ 9:22 PM ]
And so its finally over. Things that I feared almost every night of my life, done and over. Im sure he's happy with the decision.
Apparently, someone has been so sensitive. A person who knows me very well would know if I was joking or not. A friend was feeling2 nak practice to become a good husband. And he happens to tell me that when he was doing my hair. So, as a JOKE, I told him Im like the wife. Is that even wrong? And so what if I posted it in FB? EVERYONE knows who is my boyfriend. EVERYONE knows that whatever I said was a joke. Because THEY know me and him are friends, close friends.
The next thing, I thought, I actually thought we have solved the matter. Someone says its never too late to change. And just after saying that, someone did the same thing again. Well, if I were a boy, I would have definitely cancelled things to prove to the girl my promises. And no, it does not happen to me.
I don't go looking for other guys for happiness. It just happens that I got more guy friends. And whenever Im sad, they are there to cheer me up. Am I in the wrong position now? And no, its not only guys. But there are girls too.
If I were not sincere to love you, I would have long leave you behind and went for other guys. My guy friends are better at treating me then you are. But did I? No, I did not. I stayed. And now its all about me not being sincerely in love with you.
I treat you as last priority? Well, yeah you're right i guess. Me not going to school in the morning with friends. Me not having lunch with friends. Me not spending time after school with friends. And yes, after all this, you are still the last priority. And I wonder where do my friends stand then? What is after last?
If I treat my guy friends more important than you, explain to me, why when my status changed to 'single', all of them msn-ed with me asking how i am, cheer me up and stuff but not a slightest bit did anyone tried to take advantage of that. Neither do they try to flirt nor do they try to replace you. Well, of course, they are nothing more than a friend!
I did not try solving things out whenever we are in a fight. Okay fine, I'll take this blame. But all the time I did this? Really? I don't think so. I think I did have done something in this SOME times.
Oh well, I think its useless explaining all this since all is over. But here's the thing. Where has that one guy who used to say we shall stay strong no matter what happens? Where has that one guy who has faith in us and tell me that no matter how we are at the very worst, we are one? Seems like the one who is strong all along is the one who gave up on this first.
Im thankful for what you have done to me so far. I appreciate every little bit of it. I don't have to show it in words do i? Yes, it may seems like I appreciate others more. But God knows how exhilarate I am when you did something sweet to me. I can show my appreciative towards you in any ways, but with friends, I can only express it in words. And you are being so uptight about it? Maybe the way I showed it to you was not enough. Im sorry then.
I hope you would find that one girl who will make you happier than I did. You deserve better I must say. Jusyt one thing, to make her happy, treat her like as though she's the only girl in the world. Treat her as though she matter so much that you won't want to lose her. Treat her more special than a friend. Im sure you guys will last forever. (:
You're perfect to me in any ways. Just that sometimes I feel like as though I was no one. And we talked. We talked about this. Not even a slightest bit have I ever thought that it's gonna end up like this. Have I ever asked for this no matter how upset I am? All I asked for was to start all over again. This is how we compared the ones with faith with the ones who don't. And when I asked for it, we talked. But for this, have you?
You think Im happy? Obviously, you don't know me well enough. You broke my heart. You lost my trust and faith. But I know, you're happy. Its your choice, you made up your mind. And I know the people around you, your friends, your family, they are happy with this too.
Thank you for that first day when you entered my life, and gain back my trust and love when I was terribly heartbroken at that time. Thank you for ruining it all over again. Thank you for the love you once shared with me for the past 3 months. Thank you for the time you spend for me. Thank you for all the sweet things you've done for me. Thank you for being there for me for 154 days since the day we met. Thank you for making me the happiest girl on earth on 22 February. Thank you for making me the saddest girl in universe on 26 May. Thank you for making me smile everyday for that 154 days. Thank you for everything.
Mine will never fade till the time has come. I love you, always have, always will. (:
[ 1:08 PM ]
And my hair is chopped off. )':
So yesterday's experienced was really scary, although Im not the one who's taking the exam. HAHA. I didn't went alone because my sweetheart accompanied me. Such a sweetheart kn. I love him many many. At least I was not lonely throughout the journey. He just know how to make me smile. Hehe! ♥
Im remember, thats why
[ 10:19 AM ]
I have a boyfriend. I have a boyfriend. I have a boyfriend.
I must remember that.
So, however I want to, I should say no.
Anyway, thank you to you guys who willingly volunteer to accompany me.
Awww, so sweet. (: Can be my boyfriend la like this. HAHA. K joking -.-
Sorry to reject your offer. You guys know my situation. (:
I really want to advertise myself la now. No girls want to offer themselves. Hmph.
[ 9:54 AM ]
I want to have more girlfriends. Close girlfriends.
I am not lesbian. Im a girl. And I need girls to be my friends.
Im bored. Haha. Going to meet Kelvin at Chinatown to check my hair and maybe trim it abit. ALONE. See, thats why I need a girl friend. Because the ones that volunteer are .. Okay bye.
Again, after so long, now then I updated. And many things have happened.
1) Its our 3 monthsary!
2) Im sick of staying in Malaysia
3) I got a kitten
and many more. K will update again when I feel like it. HAHA bye.
unappreciate.
[ 10:07 PM ]
If I could have just one wish, I wish my life would end any time soon. I would be grateful to have just a wish.
At the age of 18, I'm tired of my life. I'm tired with the dramas that revolve around my world. Im sick of being happy for a few seconds and end up being disappointed for hours. This year, I'm going through so many things. And yet, its only a quarter of the year.
Im happy. Im thankful. But with too much disappointments, eventually I give up. I don't know why it seems that people always expect more from me. I am me. I am myself. It's hard to change a part of me that I am so used to. Well, at least I'm trying.
People say I have ego, not knowing that they have it too. Everyone has it. Who doesn't? But whenever things happen, its always my ego are at fault. Ever wonder that maybe both play a part in this? Or just maybe your ego are bigger than mine that you can't seem to admit its your fault?
Ever thought that maybe I did compromise many things? Ever reflect that maybe I did give in most of the times? Ever contemplate that maybe I was crying a little too many times at the things that other people have while I don't? No, nobody ever bother to see my side of story.
There are times I wanna give up and let go of everything I have. Yet, I still hold on. Because I love the things/people I have in my life. Somehow, I am not being appreciated. And I guess that's my weakest point. To give up when not being appreciated.
Have I?
[ 4:23 PM ]
Every girl needs a man. You know, the kind that’ll treat you right. The kind that has enough respect for you & is willing to change, just to be with you. The kind that searches for you with all his heart & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her because he knows she’s got all that he wants & needs already. He won’t mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep. This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s to just go to the store & buy you your favorite kind of candy. He would defend & fight for you & wouldn’t bail on you for his friends when you need him most. The kind that won’t leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly, even if he’s out with his friend, to just tell you that he loves & misses you a lot. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around & tell them, “She’s the one”. The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little. The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, waits for you when you’re falling behind, & opens doors for you. Every girl needs a man who will take you out on dates once in awhile & buys you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday. The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him. He would remind you that he loves you & that he’s happy to be with you, just in case you forget. The kind that just doesn’t want kisses & hugs, but to actually be loved & to love. You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you’re down, tells you to be strong & to not cry, & when you do cry, he’d cry with you when times are hard. The kind that will go through thick & thin with & for you. The kind that just loves you for who you are & not for who you aren’t and loves you because you’re his favorite girl in the whole wide world.
Have I really found him?
Smoking kills. It kills your money.
[ 4:17 PM ]
Im bored so I wanna blog. And I just had to post this.
My faci was telling my class about this one rp student who used to be in her class last semester. So this guy was a smoker. And one day he was determined to stop smoking. In class, he was fidgeting and look restless, but he did not give up. He told faci he is really trying hard. By trying to stop thinking about smoking, he pop some sweets occasionally and went for exercise. This semester, he actually succeeded in quitting smoking. IN ONE SEMESTER. I want to meet this guy seriously and congratulate him in person. :D
So smokers, I swear Im gonna give a million middle fingers if you say it is impossible to quit. Yes, its HARD, its TORTURING, its a HELL. But with determination, anything is possible.
It's not that I am anti-smokers. I myself don't believe those bullshit about the cancer thingy and stuff. And smoking kills? Well, it MIGHT happen right? But the main thing that really pissed me with these smokers are the ones who claims that they are broke/poor/no money but actually have the money to buy a pack of cigarettes! Like seriously, don't these smokers have COMMON SENSE?! If you fucking have no money to spend on your daily needs, then might as well not add up your misery by smoking!
I really hate this kind of people. Like what my mum said, she don't care anyone who smokes including me. Just as long as I know that I am very well capable of spending on it. Truth is, Im not. I might just as well spend it on food rather than this bullshit. For once, I agreed with my mum's judgement. Suckers.
Just wanna share something with you guys. So long! (: