[ 3:27 AM ]
and so, problems never seems to cease.
wishlist is piling up and never gonna ends.
white hairs are growing trying to solve problems.
me and fatin have the same main prob. guys.
are guys suppose to be pathetic or wat?
are they created on earth to hurt us girls?
shit la kn.
hmm..
and ohh, i made a perjanjian.
HAHA.
im gonna be single until im officially 18.
can i make it? hahah. we'll see.
eh come on la, i've been single for 3 years.
woohhoo.
can la dian.
(:
[ 12:16 AM ]
AAAAAAAAAND,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUUUUUUL!
hahaha.
k, so i was so the semangat la kn standby hp by my side.
konon2 nk wish on time gitu. HAHA.
den, nature's call. urgh.
like no other time to call like that.
time org ngah nk standby, time tu gak emergency.
so i wished him, 12.11AM.
HAHAHAHA.
omg.
so will be celebrating nxt week at escape theme park with him.
woohooo!
(:
and sumpah demi Allah, aku ngan dier kwn.
dah la, stop eh asking.
im tired of answering!
[ 12:50 AM ]
HAHAHAHA.
k, omg.
i dunno why but i just can't stop laughing.
remember my previous post?
i was so emo and alll?
yeah, im back to myself today.
its a nice day i guess.
hahaha.
and yes, my heart is dancing around.
HAHAHAHA.
ok, life is full of ups and downs.
know why im happy?
because...
its a happy daaaay! hahahaa.
k shut up, dian.
haha.
[ 1:04 AM ]
hmm, problems after problems.
life is nothing without it rite?
and yes, as what i've said, i would overcome it.
im tired of waiting.
waiting for something that is impossible to happen.
i've been patient for too long.
long enough for me to feel being hurt and alone.
where's the promise you made?
when we sat on the beach and watch the sunrise,
i recalled u saying you will always be there for me.
but shit, its only today that i realise it was all a fake.
u still love her, i can sense it.
and its too much for u to leave her.
i was nothing in ur heart, dear.
i was just a shoulder for u to cry on.
and this truth kills my happiness.
im upset coz the truth was not directly from ur mouth,
but ur reactions.
i was on the verge of letting go,
but i still care for you.
i know what u're going through nowadays with ur family and life.
i pity u, but did you feel the same way towards me?
do you know that disappearing silently is killing me?
fuck it dude. u seriously have no guts.
where's the real you?
and what hurts me most baby,
to realise that i don't deserve a special place in your heart.
i was never yours dear.
school is starting soon.
i dunno if i have the heart to study anymore.
its a new chapter of my life again.
reminiscing back to my first step to high school.
the feelings of excitement and nervousness.
hoping hard not to go wrong class again.
or should i say lecture hall?
it would be the same thing over again.
ice-breaking game, famous for first-comers.
haha. gosh.
working was always a problem for me.
been trying hard to look for one.
and yet, its all going back to square one.
im back to kfc.
i dunno how should i react when i think about this.
mum has been forcing me to work.
coz my expenses has been way too much.
but to work in a place that im not interested in?
urgh. in any seconds, my tears just gonna flow like waterfalls.
my life. i dunno whats happening to me.
im trying to change for the better.
thats my only resolutions for 2009.
and theres no improvement.
instead, im getting worse den ever.
yes, im proud to say me and mum has not been fighting everyday like we used to be.
we rarely fight. good news i guess.
eventhough ain say, i still talked to her like we are friends.
but yeah, it has always been that way.
im getting lazier than ever.
i can't even do any chores even when im jobless and not schooling.
i'm still as catty as ever.
idk why but its just me.
im depressed.
im stressed up.
im sad.
im hurt.
ppl see me as wat i am before.
the happy me.
the one who's angry or sad for a few minutes and back to old self.
but nobody realise, i was just being fake.
fatin, i will always be there for you. no matter what. u noe that rite? haha.
and im glad u and eka are ok now.
show that wilbur, u and him equals to pure love.
dun be like me..who apparently sucks at relationship.
thanks for advicing bout you-know-who.
yeah, i think i will have a slow talk with him.
[ 11:11 PM ]
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B)Tag 8 people to do this quiz. Those that are tagged cannot refuse
C)Continue this game by tagging 8 other people
1.What have you been doing recently ?
ahh, eat. sleep. going out. job-seeking. eat. sleep. going out. job-seeking.
2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off ?
haha. yes, recently. when this person pretty much seems to annoy me.
3. What happened at 10am today ?
ahh, i was in bed, sleeping. haha. and ohh, that dumbass karang guni keeps on shouting and honking.
4. When did you last cry ?
erkk..last few days. the day wq made me talk bout my ex.
5. Believe in fate/destiny ?
hmm, pretty much indeed, I DO.
6. What do you want in your life now ?
urgh. to fulfill all my wishlist. HAHA.
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
none. i just run for god sake.
8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed ?
lol. stupidest question ever. like duhh, why do ppl invent bed for? sleep of course!
9. What bottoms are you wearing now ?
tights.
10. What's the nicest things in your inbox ?
aww, all are very nice indeed. but nicest is those who sent me bdae wish. (:
11. Do you tend to make your relationship complicated ?
hahahaha. omg. tough question. no, i don't..but it seems like im creating one right now. haha.
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone ?
erk, nahh. i dun really borrow things to wear.
13. What was the last movie you caught ?
bride wars on valentines with taufiq!
14. What are you proud of ?
im proud that im an independent girl. yesssss, i am. just not disciplined. pfft.
15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say ?
from my new hp, it would be fatin msging me to meet on last monday celebrating my belated bdae.old hp, would be my ex. saying...erm..nvm, no need to know.
16.What was the last song you sang out loud ?
salam untuk kekasih.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
dian. feizan. belo. oi. eh. coconut(kfc). dodo(my relatives. pfft.). bb gal!
18. What does the newest text say ?
haniff msging me..ask if can meet..
19. What time did you go to bed last night ?
3++..
20. Are you currently happy ?
hmm, yes!
21. Who gives you the best advise?
my mum. eventhough sometimes, its really nonsensical.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
i don't and i won't eat any types of cream.
23. Who did you talk on the phone last night ?
erm..my grandad? HAHAHA. followed by taufiq.
24. Is something bugging you now?
YES. YES. YES. this "thing" is ALWAYS bugging me.
25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
my mum and sis.
1) fatin
2) hanan
3) ain
4) d'fiee
5) lyn
6) ain ftp
7) nabilla
8) nazihah
[ 1:12 AM ]
my wishlisti have like an infinite list of wishes that i long to be granted.
it never seems to end.
instead, it seems to extend longer and longer every half second.
this if for
fun k? haha. don't bother reading it.
-accoustic guitar. (idk why but this came first in my mind, and i want it
badly)
-lose weight. (not schooling and being jobless is bad. very bad. i think i gained tons)
-gym. (i need someone to accompany me to go here.)
-jogging. (yeah, someone to accompany here toooo.)
-
money. (i guess it makes me happy?)
-new hp. (i know i just bought one. but seriously, me and hp=enemy. big time)
-new wardrobe. ( haha. half of the door broke? haha. funny.)
-shopping. (this is my new hobby.)
-
money. (yes, it does makes me feel rapturous!)
-job. (i really hate to work. but i need job. coz mama cannot tahan my spending already.)
-red highlights. (yes, u heard it. red. haha. me and ain plan to do it wen we get our pay.)
-reality. (i dream too much.)
-being monogamist. (its hard, but i think its time for me to stop fooling around)(trying hard)
-being a faithful gf. (HAHAHA. ya i know, i suck at it.)
-no scatter-brained please. (yes, i cannot be scatty all the time. i need a good memory)
-being volatile is a no-no. (haha. im pretty much volatile. oh god. no one can predict my mood)
-avoid being catty. (erkk, yeah i know im always sarcastic to ppl who i hate much)
-being assertive. (i really hate ppl bullying me. like that fucking guardian.)
-
money. (it makes me feel wooh!)
-to have one last-long bf. (impossible? try me.)
-rich. (ahh, i think its the same meaning as money?)
-open up a cafe with bestfrens! (HAHA. we plan this quite a long time. i hope it works)
-to live nearby bestfrens! (after married. yes, we planned this too.)
-
money. (it makes me feel high.)
-freedom. (ya, i already had freedom. but i need more freedom. i guess this has to wait till im 21?)
-get rid of stalkers. ( i think i had one. keeps on bugging me. shit)
-sweet-talkers to be MUTE. (HAHA, i really100 wish this would happen.)
-all the evil ppl to be vanished from earth. (haha..its ok to wish right?)
-
money. (i won't stop, till its granted)
-new home. ( im sick of bishan. so very the mendaaaaak)
-HE hates me. (yeah, i really need him to hates me. im trying hard btw)
-enough sleep. (i noe this is funny since im jobless and school-less. but i dun have much sleep.)
-to forget my ex. (im trying haaaaard. its just to difficult.)
-to forget my past. (yes, i had a baaaaad past.)
-
money. (weeeeee, i need it badly.)
-own a bike. (125rz? or wateva it is. i forgot.)
-license. by 18!(like duhhh. hhaha. i wanna have car and bike license)
-to love and being loved. (by that special someone.)
-disciplined. (idk why ppl say i got no disciplined. i cannot believe like that)
-to laugh and never cry. (its a wish ppl..hahaha)
-happy-go-lucky always? (i am pretty much one now. but not always)
-
MONEY.
and the list go on and on and on and on..
haha, as u can see, money is my top priority i guess?
yes, i really need it badly. i need to shop. i need to buy things.
my hands are craving for it. lol.
at this moment, i just need to curse something.
curse at guardian for delaying my pay.
and curse myself for being so fussy to work.
[ 2:36 PM ]
idk why eh yesterday i like so jiwang like that.
talk to wq and taufiq bout my ex and all. LOL.
and please la, me and zul friends only. nothing more.
haha, funny la u guys keep on asking me.
you know who i like right(:
so no more asking me bout zul k.
and wq, dun be so scared to propose girl.
see la, now u emo2 all. HAHA.
den ur fault la, i yesterday cry u know.
u make me talk bout my ex.
den i start to think bout the past olredi.
u ahh, make me suffer again.
u better read this and apologise to me!
haha.
haix, im missing my ex olredi.
and yes, they are still together.
heartache siol.
my heart like kena stabbed manymany times liddat.
now need sometime again to forget everything. again.
[ 11:29 PM ]
they came and never left.
they are my priceless possesssion.
they are my infinite laughter&happiness.
they are my everlasting love.
nothing could trade them or replace them better.
nothing could break us apart.
not even you, who tries to create rumours among us.
we were, we are, and we will always be best friends.
get it?
it used to be..6?
now its the 4 of us.
one wish for my birthday,
it will always stay this way till forever. always.
[ 9:03 PM ]
penat.
penat.penat.penat.
kaki cramp. and i think im having a backache.
haha. see, like old woman like that. haha.
the reason for this is because job seeking with ain.
see la, told her to drop down the bus stop neva press bell.
den terlepas and must patah balik.
going home time, haha, this one very funny.
we tahan i dunno how many wrong bus.
thanks to ain potek eyes. haha.
its so funny.
one time, its the correct bus..but when we stand up..
we only manage to see the bus drive past us.
hahaha. k.
went thomson and eat at kfc.
and yeah arnd 5.30 took bus to mum's workplace.
reached home arnd 7?
i think my stamina is not as good as last time.
i would practically have difficulty in breathing even for a short distance.
wth?
ahh, need to go gym and buck up my stamina again.
(:
and i neeed to diet.
rotting at home doing nothing, i gained weight like alot.
ish. dian dian...
i cannot go out at night to meet haniff today.
hmm..
coz mama say i went out too much olredi.
lol.
so sorry):
[ 8:40 PM ]
come on, curse me.
i need someone to scold me.
someone to wake me up.
someone to differentiate me from drama and reality.
someone to make me realise im a girl.
i cannot do it myself.
coz, each time i tried, im doing more mistake instead.
im not trying to give hope.
i just want us to be friends.
im glad some understand.
but to other some?
why can't they merely understand when i just remain us to be that way?
why they keep on pestering me, telling me they wanna try harder?
wtf?!
for god sake, its up to you.
but here i am, suffering.
coz when i allowed you guys to do so, it seems like u have the power to control me.
who am i to u?
i don't mind u guys wanna try hard to impress me.
coz i've warned you guys and yet u all want to do ur own way.
but to control me? shit man.
im not ur damnit dog bullshit.
right now, im not entertaining any new comers.
be it friends or whatsoever they want me to be.
coz those "friends" words, i cannot trust anymore.
i don't think i even noe whats the meaning of it.
its useless to look in dictionary.
coz whats stated in it is different from what i've experienced.
big thanks to zul who already half-scolded me.
it somewhat make me realised what im doing is wrong.
no, im not wrong.
theres nothing wrong to make new friends.
and i didn't give my numbers to them.
just a simple chat in msn? is that wrong?
ahh, maybe i should just lie to ppl im married?
then they wouldn't control me.
HAHA.
i just need ONE special person. not alot.
i have that someone in mind.
just that, he's not fully mine.
maybe he's not mine at all...
[ 8:02 PM ]
hahah. candid. as always, my fave.
irfan fitri. cute kn? aww.
iqaaaaah. hehe.
faaaaaatin winterlove(:
hahaha. cheyy3.
woooh. sexayyy. hahah!
sweeeeet kn kn kn?
me cutting cakeeeee! hehe
fatin winterlove homemade cake! nice u know! hehehe.
thanks eh fatin!
laro's sweetest message. aww, this one very
emotional u know. but ya la, my funny pics
spoil the mood.
laro's card. (:
faaaaatin's card. (:
fatin's card again. hehe.
fatin's and laro's present! hehehe.
iqaaaah's and irfan present! (:
me! credits to irfan fitri.
me and iqah. credits to irfan fitri.
me and fatin. credits to irfan fitri.
me and kaushalya. credits to irfan fitri.
me and irfan fitri! hehe.
someone find me a husband tat are as cute as irfan fitri and i swear
i will do anything for u.
aww, cute la irfan! cuuuuute abes!
heheheeh.
[ 7:44 PM ]
so valentines was fun i guess?
since i celebrated it with a friend, no mushy2 feelings.
hahahahahahahah.
k, thousands of thanks to taufiq,
who susah payah bought me a flower and chocs since its vday.
like he said, since its a special day,
why not make it a special moment?
ahhh, awwww..sweet abes!!
and tankiewwww fatin who wished me vday first instead of ur bf.
hahaha.
im ok right now. nothing to be sad of.
its just a little problem.
jgn nk sensitive lebih2 la dian.
so who say, valentines are supposed to celebrate with ur loved ones?
i've got friends who i love and i can still celebrate with them.
well, valentines with taufiq was spent watching midnight movie.
ahh, pink panther 2? haha.
and went home around 3am.
sunday was spent timeless times in bed.
and i think i created countless dreams.
i woke up in evening?
and i think i slept again around 11 +..
and yet i still have eyebags. urgh.
k today celebrated my belated bdae with my girlfriends!
k, its really touching for wat they did.
obviously, i didn't cry like wat kau said. haha.
but its really really really emotional.
thanks fatin, for baking the cake! ahh, love it sooo much!
and for the cards too.
kau, tankieww for the cards(:
its really sweet, and touching, and...so sweeeeet. hehe.
and ahh, exceptional to the candid pics of me la.
that makes me dun want to cry.
hahaha.
and iqaaaaaah(and irfan too),
thanks for ur present!!
love the smell(: hhehe.
k, overall, the celebration was fun!
its the sweetest day of my life.
for a moment i forgot all my problems.
and yeah, who said we need a life partner to complete my life?
i have them, true friends, who i know would always be there for me.
thanks girlfriends. i love you alll lots and lots and lots......
hugs and kisses!!!!! hahaha.
[ 12:39 AM ]
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PPL?
well, nothing to look forward to for this special day.
haha.
as i said, it would be spent with a friend.
should have stayed at home and grow fat,
and yet i didn't.
glad to see couples would be having fun with theis
loved ones.
me? haha.
im living a single life baybeh.
which im suppose not to this year.
and so again, another year to be celebrate with a friend.
4 years in a row.
awesome life dian.
*crying hard* and no one cares.
[ 11:55 PM ]
k, this pic i just manage to upload. see the pic above?
that one laa, i tok about. dunno what's the name of it.
and yeah below is the luge ride.
this two, i phobia abes.
thanks to zul la.
humph!
ahhhhhh, hahahahahahah.
k im happy that hanan get to rp!
hahaha.
erm, im happy i guess?
hahaha.
for no reason. just simply happy.
(:
and happy belated bdae to nurul, my cousin!
[ 1:32 AM ]
really sorry zul i had to cancel our dates on valentine.
really really sorry.
we go swimming some other time k?
and i'll make it up on ur birthday!
and so, my valentine this year is with taufiq.
really tk berniat nk hurt zul's feeling.
but..yeah..
i hope zul understand.
wateva it is, im still celebrating valentine day with a
friend.cool or what?
like as if im not important on this special day.
hmm, i understand.
glad that at least i have some friends to celebrate with.
once again, very sorry zul.
and taufiq, we date tepi longkang ok? HAHA.
bb boy, hmm..happy advance valentine day?
would u even wish me on that special day?
[ 11:31 PM ]
ohh, ohh, ohh!
bb boy msg meeee.
haha! ok.
so the reason is he's really busy working.
malam werk..abeh siang continue lagik.
aww, and here i am pikir bukan2.
aye, my fault.
dunno why i cannot trust him. haix.
well, happy to hear that he werk.
finally buat keje yg berfaedah.
hehe. k chao! :]
[ 10:41 PM ]
well, i had a shocking call to start off my day.
it was still morning and the phone was ringing.
so my first thought was my mum.
guess what? its a call from RIA.
its the sabo sixten or wateva.
hahah. k, so they actually offered me a job in sports industry.
the salary sumpah merepek abes.
and they say i had to wear baju kurung and selendang?
like wth. and i kept asking them isit ria or what?
then they like nono. haha.
for those yg dpt dengar, omg, sungguh malu.
i like org selenge still say no problem all.
hahah. k, really didn't expect that call.
so afterall, my mum did succeed uhs? haha.
den as usual, slept till afternoon.
urgh. mendak abes oi.
everyday sleep till late afternoon then go out.
so today i did something good.
i volunteer to help my mum in her office.
aww, so sweet of me. haha. self-praise.
finally i did something worthwhile to spend my day.
tmr gonna accompany my mum for her check-up and therapy.
alhamdullilah, her hand is much better now.
the scar is for life. and i think she's proud of it?
haha. konon2 step gangster la.
LOL.
[ 3:00 PM ]
dikala dikau mencari cinta
aku memberi..... tapi tk pernah ku rasakan
Di kala aku dilamun cinta dengan dirimu
Mengapa kau jauh dariku
Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
Biarpun kau kata Baby I love You
Tidak kau rasa getaran ini
Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
*Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hatiku
Tak perlu kau ucap 'Baby I love you so'
Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku*
Haruskah aku menahan perasaan
Tak sanggup kau bermain di fikiran
kulupakan semua apa diimpikan
Jadikan pengalaman cinta kita berdua
Setelah semuanya berlalu.... hatiku sepi
tapi ku harus hadapi
hidup tanpa curahan hatimu
aku gembirakan ku simpan cinta ini
Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
Biarpun kau kata 'Baby I love you'
tidak kau rasa getaran ini
Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hatiku
Tak perlu kau ucap 'Baby I love you so'
Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menahan perasaan
Tak sanggup kau bermain di fikiran
kulupakan semua apa diimpikan
Jadikan pengalaman cinta kita berdua
haruskah
aku menanti
haruskah aku cinta kamu
kerna ku tahu coz baby u dun love me so
ni lagu speciallyyyyyy dedicated for org tu.
u know who u are.
my body is aching. urgh. like old ppl like that. hahah.
and haha, RIA called me today.
i didn't pick up. because i was in the toilet.
so mama failed to put me through in radio.
last year, its because i was in school having lesson.
this year, yeah as i said, i was in the toilet.
hmm, try harder for next year k mama?
so sweet of you la! thanks for the wish pat radio tu.
and many thanks to fiza o who sang bdae song for me and other bdae ppl.
and yeah, erkk, thanks to many others who still wished me today.
and sad to say, he's not one of them.
urgh, nemind. i don't give a damn bout it.
[ 1:21 AM ]
[ 12:53 AM ]
happy belated birthday to me?
hahaha.
7th feb was spent with haniff.
movies? and the underworld...is m18.
and we have no choice but to watch bride wars.
hahahaa. bride wars? hahhaha.
ok, its fun to me. but to haniff? ahahah.
its a girl movies baybeh.
haha, haniff, so sorry, not my fault wat i underage.
hurhur.
8th feb.
haha. tankiew to all who's willing to wait till 12am to wish me.
lol. 12am and my handphone vibrate non-stop.
haniff drop by around 2am?
dok pat bwh blok till 3+ like that.
and i force him to send me right at my doorstep.
hahaha.
haniff penakut. hahaha.
and so today my special day,
i celebrated with zul.
i felt guilty actually coz my dad just take a day off from work to celebrate my bdae.
i mean, it was really unexpected.
he neva takes a day off even on his bdae,
and yet he takes a day off on mine?
he was quite dissapointed, i could tell.
but he was really an understanding dad, that allow me to celebrate wit zul.
met zul at tpy. den off to bugis.
funniest part is, zul bought my present right in front of me.
haha. case last minute.
den off to vivo and have lunch.
and its sentosa baybehh.
cannot mandi siaaaa. neva bring extra baju. humph!
so wat to doo..only rides lorr.
we tried all kinds of rides.
and thanks to zul, i now phobia with luge ride.
anyhow bump me here and there. neneh cb.
we also tired this new thing which i seriously dunno what its suppose to be.
and also the thing which i swear i won't ride it ever again.
make me embarrass only. haha.
den..actually its really long story,
just keep it short and simple,
today with zul is awesome.
hahah.
parents fetch me at vivo.
off to newton and have dinner.
and home sweet home.
its 9th february ALREADY.
almost everyone i know have wished me.
and yet that someone im waiting for have yet to wish.
who am i to that someone?
it seems like im happier to spend my bdae with a friend than,
than spending with someone that are meant to be special to me.
haix.
[ 12:25 AM ]
IM OFFICIALLY JOBLESS NOW.
gave a notice to eric this evening.
good news isn't it?
the bad news.
i will be going back to KFC if i didn't find any job by next tuesday.
fuck shit.
KFC??!!
oh god, no. pls.
i've applied like zillion available jobs with different post.
i also tempted to apply jobs for cleaners, but of course i didn't. haha.
i just need one damn job to avoid working in KFC.
and all the job i applied for have to wait for 2-3 weeks for calls.
another bloodyshit.
by the time i get the call, i think i get my 2 weeks pay from KFC.
lol.
serve me right for being such a spendthrift that even my parents can't support me.
dad gave me $250 for my bdae trips with friends.
and now its left with $200.
tmr, dunno left how much.
haix.
well, there are immediate vacancy for some job.
and again, due to my cerewet-ness, i refused to take those jobs.
for example, F&B, hotel banquet crew and so on.
i think i would consider for that hotel banquet crew.
desperate or what? HAHA.
[ 11:47 PM ]
and so, the headquarter called my mum this afternoon.
she really can't help us as its like the early month and its kinda too late.
the good news is that the big boss was really angry with our bosses(eric and eugene).
i heard that he called them and scold them. HAHA. goody goody!
she also advice me not to quite now as it shows them that im to coward.
well, i think it over and i still stick to my decision.
i really can't face those idiots.
mum would try to call them tmr to ask for transfer.
maybe at thomson if possible?
anywhere as long as its not that damnit branch.
tried to look for job again today, but yeah too lazy.
manage to send resume to one job..retail assistant or something like that.
and im thinking of working in hotel. banquet crew?
everything would be provided. and the pay is not that bad i think.
hmm..should give a thought about it.
meeting with haniff tmr would be postponed to thursday?
if thats even possible?
my allowance that mama gave me this week left with..3 bucks?
and seriously, it won't even pay up the meal,
and im planning to catch a movie still? haha, funny.
i think i have to ask mama for loan, like again.
hah! im a spendthrift baby.
i really need to cut down my spending.
like food for example?! i had a huge appetite this year.
as in real huge. i can eat more than my dad.
this led them to thoughts that are sooo fake! "pregnant"
what the heck? im just in the process of growing up only la. haha.
okay, another thing i need to cut down is..shopping.
like i can just spend hundreds in a few minutes in one shop.
pathetic or what?
i need some motivational talk, like seriously.
and my heart is negative zero going back to work this friday.
mama say just show them my face for the last time and i can do whatever i like.
sheesh.
[ 10:49 PM ]
today went to headquarter to solve the matter of my salary.
and well, the headquarter really denies that the outlet has confirmed on 11 jan.
so now, we noe whos the damn bloody fucking idiot.
luckily, the one incharge was really really nice.
not like wat our boss said, rude and show off. she's way way different.
in fact, she tried to help us get our pay by next week.
and of course, we grab the chance to complain bout the store and the irresponsible staffs.
hah! padan muker dorang!
well, as always nothing goes the way i plan.
what i plan was to find job right after meeting the hq.
but yeah, went bedok and eat instead. HAHA.
den took a bus straight to toa payoh and peeping fatin working at bata!
she's looking free there, but dunno la. haha.
i was only there for 5 mins.
tried to ask for job there as well. and what i can say bout the staff is,
well, they kinda show off.
my first impression k. coz wen i asked bout job vacancy, they seems to like..u noe that kind of face.
urghh. i hate it wen ppl do that. hahaha.
once reached home, i registered at jobscentral which mama reccomended.
and yes, once i registered, theres hundreds of jobs that are suitable for me.
i applied some to what im interested in.
hopefully, i get some good news by tmr!
and oh yeah, the pay they give us, wooh!
and omg, i just get to know im a very bad cousin!
can u believed it, i used to hate hafiz alot? as in ALOT?!
mama says that, last time, i dun allow him to play games with us.
cannot eat whatever ayah bought for us. cannot go out with us.
if he's there, then i would show attitude and refused to do what he does!
and i dun even allow ppl to talk to him?
k, seriously i dun remember all this stuff. it was like years ago.
but..omg..what had he done till i hate him so much?
so, wateva it is..im reallly truly am sorry deep deep down in my heart.
no wonder he dun want to tok to me now.
haha. k nvm, things gonna change.
i promise to be a good cousin!!! (:
[ 3:24 AM ]
kuang ajar nyer zul upload my pic yg sungguh tk senonoh tu!
hahahaha.
nemind, i gt his pic la kn kn kn?
cheh, should have take candid like what i use to do last time.
seriously, i didn't snap that many pictures.
coz busy enjoying la kn.
so here's a few and there's a few more in frenster.
nemind, next time go holiday, its pay back time.
would snap lots of candid pics of him and apiz. haha!
and seriously, this trip was a memorable ones.
because its the only trip tat we SESAT every few minutes!
hahaha..kecohrable to the max.
[ 1:56 AM ]
kimak mak yek tol, dpt gaji end of feb. baek pa?!
sialan utk boss guardian toa payoh.
so what if its cny and we all are in holiday mood?
work is work man. fuck them to the core.
mama met kecoh and now its a really confusing story.
they blame hq and hq blame them.
and our dear boss eric, won't damnit fucking pay our salary in advance.
curse them and their store! no customer would want to go there!
let them bankrupt!
monday is my last day. chibai im damn relieved.
so no money to shop. pokai to the max.
and my bdae is coming soon.
need to celebrate with zul on the 7th or 8th at sentosa.
everything equals to money.
pukimak dorang bacin, i think i have to cancel the plan.
mama says she can only give me allowance but no shopping money.
k, i think i vulgar enough. and yet im still not satisfied. who cares?
i've got the urge to go bomoh and make the boss there all suffer!
HAHA. den i would be satisfied. (:
but im not that bad la kn. sheesh.
so, no job. no money. no fun. no shop. no meeting ppl la.
february is going to be a cool month or what?