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Well hello. (:
Enjoy, cheerios!

Hello, my name is Dian Farhana Friends call me Dian. Colleagues/teachers/faci/strangers prefer calling me Farhana.
I don’t why, they just do. -.-
For me? I’m fine with both, really. (:
I have a lot of nicknames; some are too embarrassing to state down.

Well, I’m officially legal as of 8 February 1992. Nothing to brag off actually.
Yes, it sure sounds sexciting and I do anticipate for this special day.
But once it’s over, it’s over. My life goes on, still the same every single day. -.-
I’m taking a diploma in RP majoring in Sports and Leisure management.
This may not be my first choice but still, I am really glad I get into this course.
I shall live my hopes on seeing my one and only idol, Usain Bolt.
Yes, I’m a big fan of him because I go “wow” when I see him runs and I go “oooh~” when he wins. :p
Oh well, it was just a wish. I hope it would come true though. :D USAIN BOLT, please visit Singapore, pretty please with millions cherries on tops.

One word, nine letters to describe myself.
I’m different; metaphorically though.
I’m different in a way that I have my own mindset and my thoughts, my belief; my thinking is different from others.
I guess I belong to the minority groups that think the same way as I do.

I think I am anti-social.
Honestly, I’m not a person who mingles with strangers and hit off with them like polaroid instantly.
I am quiet when I’m alone. But once I’m with a bunch of crazy friends around me, be prepared to see me being crazier than them.
I don’t like noisy places or worse, crowded places.
I just have this feeling that everyone is staring at me and that is scary.
I pity my parents most of the time because they are usually pressured whenever we are dining out.

I am born to be stubborn. That’s something you have to bear with me.
I want things to go my way. I am extremely determined to achieve what I want and it must happen.
I am very demanding. Try go against me, I’ll give you a triple worse attitude. Wanna give it a try?
I am egoistic, that I can’t deny. I always wanted to win. But sometimes (rarely). I would relent; that’s when you guys are lucky though.

I don’t like people who use profanities.
I can’t stand people saying it even though it’s once in a while.
But sometimes, I do say it too. :p But I’ll regret and smack my mouth.
I rarely feel angry. I guess that’s the only positive thing I am proud of myself.
But once I do, I’ll go extremely superbly quiet.
I guess I’ve learnt it since I was small to always keep my mouth shut.
That’s why it’s hard for me to console people who are angry with me.
Oh, but at the same time I am a rebel person too. Contradicting, I know.
But I would only rebel when things doesn’t go my way.
I rebel in my quiet way. I may be quiet when I am angry but I rebel at the same time. Get it?
I’m patient. Patience with limits. Be friends with me and you‘ll know how high my patience is.

Im not perfect.
And there’s still more weakness in me which I’ve yet to reveal.
Despite all these imperfections, I have a fair share of my strength in myself.
But that is for you guys to judge me. Now enough about myself.

Meet my one and only boyfriend, Nadhir Osman.
♥ My one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.♥

22.02.2010, that’s the special date. And it is special to us somehow in terms of the numeric terms.

As cliché as it may sound, but he completes my life.
He’s my best friend, my best companion, my best advisor, my best everything.
He may not be the most perfect guy in every girl’s eye, but he is to me.
His imperfections are perfect enough to be my better half.

Our relationship may not be as those like in fairytales.
We live in a place called reality.
We’ve had our share of fights and arguments but we never let them get us down.

How much I love him, why do I love him..it’s better left unsaid.

Just so all of you know, HE knows, that I love him truly; always and forever, eternity and beyond.♥

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hmm, problems after problems.
life is nothing without it rite?
and yes, as what i've said, i would overcome it.

im tired of waiting.
waiting for something that is impossible to happen.
i've been patient for too long.
long enough for me to feel being hurt and alone.
where's the promise you made?
when we sat on the beach and watch the sunrise,
i recalled u saying you will always be there for me.
but shit, its only today that i realise it was all a fake.
u still love her, i can sense it.
and its too much for u to leave her.
i was nothing in ur heart, dear.
i was just a shoulder for u to cry on.
and this truth kills my happiness.
im upset coz the truth was not directly from ur mouth,
but ur reactions.
i was on the verge of letting go,
but i still care for you.
i know what u're going through nowadays with ur family and life.
i pity u, but did you feel the same way towards me?
do you know that disappearing silently is killing me?
fuck it dude. u seriously have no guts.
where's the real you?
and what hurts me most baby,
to realise that i don't deserve a special place in your heart.
i was never yours dear.

school is starting soon.
i dunno if i have the heart to study anymore.
its a new chapter of my life again.
reminiscing back to my first step to high school.
the feelings of excitement and nervousness.
hoping hard not to go wrong class again.
or should i say lecture hall?
it would be the same thing over again.
ice-breaking game, famous for first-comers.
haha. gosh.

working was always a problem for me.
been trying hard to look for one.
and yet, its all going back to square one.
im back to kfc.
i dunno how should i react when i think about this.
mum has been forcing me to work.
coz my expenses has been way too much.
but to work in a place that im not interested in?
urgh. in any seconds, my tears just gonna flow like waterfalls.

my life. i dunno whats happening to me.
im trying to change for the better.
thats my only resolutions for 2009.
and theres no improvement.
instead, im getting worse den ever.
yes, im proud to say me and mum has not been fighting everyday like we used to be.
we rarely fight. good news i guess.
eventhough ain say, i still talked to her like we are friends.
but yeah, it has always been that way.
im getting lazier than ever.
i can't even do any chores even when im jobless and not schooling.
i'm still as catty as ever.
idk why but its just me.
im depressed.
im stressed up.
im sad.
im hurt.
ppl see me as wat i am before.
the happy me.
the one who's angry or sad for a few minutes and back to old self.
but nobody realise, i was just being fake.

fatin, i will always be there for you. no matter what. u noe that rite? haha.
and im glad u and eka are ok now.
show that wilbur, u and him equals to pure love.
dun be like me..who apparently sucks at relationship.
thanks for advicing bout you-know-who.
yeah, i think i will have a slow talk with him.