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Well hello. (:
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Hello, my name is Dian Farhana Friends call me Dian. Colleagues/teachers/faci/strangers prefer calling me Farhana.
I don’t why, they just do. -.-
For me? I’m fine with both, really. (:
I have a lot of nicknames; some are too embarrassing to state down.

Well, I’m officially legal as of 8 February 1992. Nothing to brag off actually.
Yes, it sure sounds sexciting and I do anticipate for this special day.
But once it’s over, it’s over. My life goes on, still the same every single day. -.-
I’m taking a diploma in RP majoring in Sports and Leisure management.
This may not be my first choice but still, I am really glad I get into this course.
I shall live my hopes on seeing my one and only idol, Usain Bolt.
Yes, I’m a big fan of him because I go “wow” when I see him runs and I go “oooh~” when he wins. :p
Oh well, it was just a wish. I hope it would come true though. :D USAIN BOLT, please visit Singapore, pretty please with millions cherries on tops.

One word, nine letters to describe myself.
I’m different; metaphorically though.
I’m different in a way that I have my own mindset and my thoughts, my belief; my thinking is different from others.
I guess I belong to the minority groups that think the same way as I do.

I think I am anti-social.
Honestly, I’m not a person who mingles with strangers and hit off with them like polaroid instantly.
I am quiet when I’m alone. But once I’m with a bunch of crazy friends around me, be prepared to see me being crazier than them.
I don’t like noisy places or worse, crowded places.
I just have this feeling that everyone is staring at me and that is scary.
I pity my parents most of the time because they are usually pressured whenever we are dining out.

I am born to be stubborn. That’s something you have to bear with me.
I want things to go my way. I am extremely determined to achieve what I want and it must happen.
I am very demanding. Try go against me, I’ll give you a triple worse attitude. Wanna give it a try?
I am egoistic, that I can’t deny. I always wanted to win. But sometimes (rarely). I would relent; that’s when you guys are lucky though.

I don’t like people who use profanities.
I can’t stand people saying it even though it’s once in a while.
But sometimes, I do say it too. :p But I’ll regret and smack my mouth.
I rarely feel angry. I guess that’s the only positive thing I am proud of myself.
But once I do, I’ll go extremely superbly quiet.
I guess I’ve learnt it since I was small to always keep my mouth shut.
That’s why it’s hard for me to console people who are angry with me.
Oh, but at the same time I am a rebel person too. Contradicting, I know.
But I would only rebel when things doesn’t go my way.
I rebel in my quiet way. I may be quiet when I am angry but I rebel at the same time. Get it?
I’m patient. Patience with limits. Be friends with me and you‘ll know how high my patience is.

Im not perfect.
And there’s still more weakness in me which I’ve yet to reveal.
Despite all these imperfections, I have a fair share of my strength in myself.
But that is for you guys to judge me. Now enough about myself.

Meet my one and only boyfriend, Nadhir Osman.
♥ My one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.♥

22.02.2010, that’s the special date. And it is special to us somehow in terms of the numeric terms.

As cliché as it may sound, but he completes my life.
He’s my best friend, my best companion, my best advisor, my best everything.
He may not be the most perfect guy in every girl’s eye, but he is to me.
His imperfections are perfect enough to be my better half.

Our relationship may not be as those like in fairytales.
We live in a place called reality.
We’ve had our share of fights and arguments but we never let them get us down.

How much I love him, why do I love him..it’s better left unsaid.

Just so all of you know, HE knows, that I love him truly; always and forever, eternity and beyond.♥

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Life just doesn't like it when Im being happy uh. And guys, why do you just love to see us girls in despair? Bloody hell.

Well, I have just decided that maybe its time for me to stop waiting for something that might never happen at all in my life. What's more, I'm ecstatic when life has been giving me such a wonderful moments when fate brought him to me. I thought this is it. But no, it's not.

Life has decide another fate for me. A cruel one. Just when I thought maybe I should stick to one, life brings me a handful to handle. They do not affect me as much as YOU.

Why are you being such a meanie? Why do you just love to see me struggling in despair? When all those while I've waited for you, where on earth have you been? Its not a matter of days or weeks but months. You know my feelings towards you and yes, you admit you feel the same. But at that point of time, your reason for us not to be together was because of another party. You told me that maybe we should let him cool down and let's just be close friend. I accept your reason because me too, feels the same. But I didn't see you even make an effort to care about my life. I thought maybe you were just playing around. My feelings for you has faded, ______.

But, just when I was thinking of moving on, you came back. And the most hurtful thing is, the reason you came back was because you found out Im letting you go and found someone else to replace you. Such a cruel act. You saw my pm and you started all your bullshit sweet words. You make me doubt my feelings. Now Im not even sure what to do.

You tell friends you like me and so on. Why now? And even till now, you're still hiding in your nutshells. Just by telling people your feelings towards me, will not change the future. Don't expect me to make the first move because I won't.

And ex(es), you can just get a life man. Oh wow, you guys are just a bullshit. Ya lah, see my pm about a guy..then want to talk, ask how is my life whereas all this time, you guys MIA-ing. You think with all your sweet words and pleading, I would want to believe you, meet you and get back with you? Thanks but NO thanks. pfft.

I don't ask for some damn perfect guy to be my partner. I don't set high standards on them. I don't ask much. Just a person who knows how to win my heart without even trying and most important of all, he loves me sincerely and are always there for me through up and downs.

Im a girl who stick to one. And Im a person who is willing to wait for years. But sadly, for your case, I think I should just move on. I know its going to be hard for me because my feelings to you was serious. But to think back and see that it was just a false hope, makes me half-hearted. Maybe it was not a false hope, but I wanted to believe it that way. If one day, you make a move and approach me, all I can say is sorry. Because, I've given u so many chance. Now, its time for me to give others a chance and I believe that someone can make that happen :p