I am super tired due to today's training what's with the unbearable scorching heat and the non stop hits games. But the fun I had throughout the day manage to succumb my tiredness. However, at the end of day, I started to feel my whole body aching especially my back. The price I get for not controlling my stamina and my health. I no longer can stand the heat despite the fact that I was only under the sun for only an hour. I could endure heat that are worse than today for few hours last time. I can no longer participate actively in activities when I could actually do activities a whole day last time. Most disappointing of all.. I can't run anymore ): Not literally though. I can but not as fast as how I used to run.

I shall be more focus to my goal now. I shall start the routine soon. No more procrastinating.






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AWWWWW, K I MISS MY LARO RIGHT THIS MINUTE. NO WAIT, I'VE ALWAYS MISSED HER SINCE I LEFT FTPSS. ):




Now, where's this once a cheerful, bubbly girl I've known once? I miss her.

Just awhile ago I chatted with a girl who resembles alot like her. But its not her. Not the cheerful, bubby Nur Fatin bin Razak I used to know since sec 1.

This girl, whom I just chatted with, is my best friend. Someone so jovial, optimistic,a happy go lucky person is what I would have describe her in my almost 5 years of knowing her. Sadly, the person I just talked to minutes ago is not the old her.

As her friend, one of her best friend, sensing this changes is not a good thing. It upsets me and most of all, guilty that as a friend, I am unable to do much to cheer her up but just telling some words of encouragement which seems so useless at that point of time.

Dear bestfriend,

I know this won't do much but I hope that it could at least wash away some sadness from u and at the very least make u smile after reading this. I know how tough it is for you to go through your life at this moment. And what anger me most is that the thing that actually almost destroy ur happiness is none other than that one guy who have hurt you too many times before. I refused to call him human because he does not have any humanity in himself.

Just remember that I, WE won't ever ever ever be angry at you. No matter if you did any mistakes either big or small. We will always be walking by your side so that when you fall, we fall together. We will always be at your back, supporting you, so that when you give up and turn back, you still have us. We will always be at your front, so that when you feel lost, we will lead you. We will always be below you, carrying you to the top. We will always be on your top, because wherever you go, we will always watch over you. (:

As much as you love him, and I don't know how you feel about him now, but I do really hope this is the time you shall end the stories between you and him. Let's close this book once and for all and get new book to start a new chapter with a guy who truly deserves your pure heart and soul. He may once be someone who meants everything to you but he honestly does not deserve your everything.

I am not a person with power who can demand you to do anything. But I am a friend who cares. A best friend who know you longer than him. A person who loves you, well in a friend way of course. And here I am, as a friend, would want the best for you, your future, your happiness, you life. He already wasted part of your life. Let's not make him wasted a whole of your life okay?

And since this is the last time(I hope), I want you to cry and let out all the tears that are meant for him. Cry till there's not even a drop of it can ever come out from your eye. Cry for the very last time and vow to yourself, this is the last you'll ever cry for him. Isn't this what you, kaukau, iqah and stella have been advising me when I lost Awan last time? Well, maybe me and awan lasted not as long as you. But it comes to the same thing, we both get heart broken. And the only thing to do is move ahead.

After the crying session, spend time with friends. Yes, only friends. Don't find anyone just yet. You'll find yourself in confused state most of the time. Then, once you think you have that happiness in yourself and you're ready to love again, do so. Love is not just about feeling. Its about taking risk. Its about willing to fall many times over again and get your hearts broken over and over. But remember that, the one for you will always get you back up and never left your hearts broken for long. They're always there to mend it and trust me the one who is really for you will have that special weapon whereby they can mend your heart till its totally new. Patience is virtue. You'll find him soon. (:

This is just something that I think would help you. Just from my experience. And I hope it helps you too.

And with this, I end my grandmother story. Shall not bore you with me super merepek advise. Haha. You know I love you right lesbo. :D




When can I see my cute boypren in this formal clothes again huuuuuh? I loikeeeee. K must force him to dress up like this one day on a RANDOM day. Haha! Conferm he muncung semacam. Then he will fight back. The we will fight. Thennnn, haiya who mengalah part ni? Sayang dier jugak. Cheyy. Betol tak betol? Betoooool :D

B, I want to see you dress up formally. I don't care. Sayang I tk? HAHAHA

See, my beloness come already. Alaaaaa, I miss my boypren la. 1 week plus never see him. Videocall sometimes only. And only today after days we talk on the phone. Pity him having to pay quite a lot of amount since Im in malaysia. Haiz..

I don't care ah on tuesday when we meet, I want to be selfish. I want to stick with him like a glue. Ceh bedek. HAHA. But oh wells, I really miss him though ♥




I want my ceilings to be like this. Macam nice only. But then this room of mine, the ceiling tanak kalah the height. Use ladder pon tak sampai kot. Seriously, damn high ah. Nvm. Shall take note of this and will apply it when Im home in Singapore. Cheh, apply. HAHA.

Im thinking more than twice whether I should start my goal now or not. When I think all over again, it does not seem really worth it. Imagine, I exercise and jog in the morning. By afternoon and at night, I ate double the weight I've lost. Comes to the same right? Tell me how to slim down like that? Haiyaaa. And I know you guys would tell me "oh, control la ur diet dian" "don't eat too much la dian" "bla bla bla la dian". Irritating eh this kind of people. Tell me easy or not to control your own diet. When you feel like eating, you eat right. Poke you peoples brain than you know. -.-

I guess nowadays Im getting moodier by every minute passed. I don't want the same reason to be the one that caused me being this way. But it does. First I felt cheated. Then I feel confused. Yes, confused. I wonder if it was just coincidence or there's a meaning lie behind all this. Im not sure of myself either. The dates were very coincidence in the first place. The place taken is DAMN coincidence. Funny huh? K this is a stupid lame shit stuff Im talking. Just don't bother.


It's only 10.20am and this is my fourth post. -.-

K, this time I wanna talk about my goal. And this goal of mine is all about health. Im worried about my body shape which seems getting bigger and bigger each day. Ape tak nye, since I stay in Johor, I eat non stop. Perot pon maken boncet. My weight is getting heavier and heavier. Haiz. The next thing Im worried about is my stamina. Im losing stamina bit by bit. Then how.. I got no ig that involve physical sports. Not like last time. I got silat, I got npcc, I got PE time.. Haizzzz.

Since I enter poly, my life just gets lazier and lazier. )': Planning to join Rugby but unfortunately Faz can't make it to Rp. Haiya. Want to join Silat but.. there's still a feeling of hesitancy. Its been a looong while since I've trained for silat and Im afraid I can't bare the trainings. Oh wells, shall give it a second thought. Thought of joining dragon boat but the schedule is way to hectic. Haiya so hard to choose.

K back to my goal. This is what Im gonna do everyday - stretch-ups, 30 sit ups and 20 push ups.
And this is what Im gonna do almost every weekday. Have a jog/run at the stadium at least 5 rounds. If I can do it last time, why not now. Its gonna be hard, but I'll have to endure. (:



After days of stressing out with the released of my result, I finaly get a view of mine. Well, not me actually. Haha. At first asked Umar to check for me since he say don't scared don't scared. Unfortunately, he cannot view my workspace. I asked some friends of mine and they too can't view it. Thought of going to IT helpdesk. But then.. No Need! Because I have my own IT helpdesk who saves the day. None other than Nadhir Osman, my boypren ah. Hehe! He help me change password and all and tadaaaa, got my results.

The minute he told me my results, heartwrenching bodoh. I passed all the subject except math which I got the Fantastic F or so says Zac. Haha! I got so moody and people trying to cheer me up. But yes, I finally did once I heard what was being said by Nadhir's sister. All I have to do is to pass all my module for year 2 and maintain my gpa above 2 in order to avoid repeating my year 1 module. Best la. Of course I can do it! :D

And Im happy with my other results due to my effortlessly not doing it with all my heart. Despite the fact that I should feel regret because I know I could have get a better grade, but hey, all Im aiming for is a pass. To me gpa doesn't matter, yet. Wait till year 2 and year 3, then I'll care for my gpa grade.

However, Im still not happy with Umar's math grade! He ended it at around the same time as me, within 15 minutes, and he actually passed?! Totally unfair. Hmph.




HAHAHA! This is funny shit. Please click to enlarge, Thank You. :D




Alaaaaaa, so shuweeeet



My pms are over but Im still frustrated with small stuffs. Why suddenly so many people is into sunflower. Sebok only. >:|

K lame la fussing over such matter. Haha. I think I want to change flower ah. Hmmm.. No, I still like sunflower.





My sickness damn weird. I think its because I am a weird person thats the why. Yesterday, I had high fever again. Today Im okay. However, my throats still sore. Later confirm fever again. But the sad part is, this is so not my worse sickness for this year. How I know? Ohh, because I guess it's like a habit/routine/must for me to have a worse sickness ONCE a year which involves all in one; that is fever/flu/sore throat/body pain/vomits..all la. Very weird I know. But since I was kid, that's how my sickness is. Lucky enough it is only ONCE. I hope this year it would be once and for all too but I don't know when.

Today, after so many days, Im finally back in Singapore. Scary la stay there alone. So I decided to follow my mum to her office despite me being sick and everything. But hey, Im strong y'know. Heh! And this morning sempat cut my fringe. Like finally. But it look cacat. Haizzz, shouldn't have been so gatal to cut off my fringe. Thought of having a new look. Definitely a new look and it is so.. Ugleyy. )':

Wanna see?


Seeeeeee effinguglyahplease!

K, what's done is done. I should have known better to go salon and have it cut. -.-


Cheers to our one monthsary. However, this is just the beginning step to our relationship. (:
I felt terribly bad because we have to cancel our date today due to my sickness. Haiz. But its okay, we shall celebrate it soon once Im well okay?

Anyway this dear of mine is very the sweet with 24 cherries on top. Hehe! At 12am sharp, he msg-ed me just to wish me happy one monthsary. Aww, didn't see that coming although I was abit suspicious when he called earlier and remind not to put on silent mode. And here's the special part from the msg. Something that he dedicate for me.

[D] earest baby of mine..
[I] love you more than anything..
[A] mazing in everything that you've done for me..
[N] ever fail to put a smile on my face on my worst day..

[F] orever and ever, eternity and beyond my dear
[A] n angel fall from heaven
[R] edirects me to the right path of life..
[H] eavenly pleasant when she smiles..
[A] ttractive in any way..
[N] ever I regret loving you..
[A] nd lastly, my one love, one heart, one life for sure...

Alaaaa, so shuweeeet. K, I blushing already. Haha! Hmmm, now here's a little something for him too!

[N] ever have I imagined
[A] person like you would be the one
[D] oing such a marvel to my life.
[H] ow wonderful the feelings I felt
[I] s exceptionally unexplainable; but one thing for sure, it’s all
[R] eal.

[O] verwhelmingly impressive in every way you are;
[S] o amazing that you
[M] anage to capture my heart.
[A] nd I hope that this feeling shall last forever. Just as long as you
[N] ever ever forget that I truly love you.

K, its not really that good since I just prepared this instantly. But I hope the message is clear enough.


My fever is getting better. Its not really as high as last night. But my headache is killing me. K this is weird. Why my headache take ages to disappear. hmm..





If you ever met someone that appeared to be charming, funny, tantalizing, and intelligent, he was probably from Aquarius Horoscope. They usually live in their own minds, filled with a world of ideas. Although they seem to possess a certain detached quality and may sometimes come across as removed from feelings, they are warm, outgoing, and very concerned with others.

These Humanitarians often are wary of emotion and like to deal rationally with life. Optimism is a big part of their nature, along with the knack of friendliness and the mastery of flirtation.

If you want to get the Aquarians attention, you will need to intellectually stimulate them. Good conversation, including debates are a favorite past time of the Water Bearer. Open minded, People under Aquarius Sign can accept criticism and understand others perceptions about things. If you have a problem, they are always willing to listen, though after awhile, enough is enough. Tolerance is a big part for Aquarians temperament. They are slow to take offense, never jealous and never over emotional.

When planning a date with an Aquarian, you don't have to go out of your way to impress them. Just about anything pleases them. From sharing a picnic lunch to a candle lit dinner, Chinese or Mexican, it doesn't matter, as long as variety is on the menu.

In time, a relationship can grow, built on trust. Never nag a person with Aquarius Horoscope about a mistake. A mistake is unimportant to them, so don't harp on it. If they are constantly told what is wrong, they will begin to feel unappreciated and the relationship can get rocky.

In any relationship, an Aquarian may find it hard to give of themselves but will always remain loyal and devoted to a worthy partner. When the Aquarius makes a promise, it's usually never broken. However, if you become demanding, and critical, they may start to wonder elsewhere.

People under the Aquarius Horoscope want a partner to share in the adventures, along with the challenges, that life has to offer. Life with them will never be boring.

Aquarius




Perfect Partners:

Gemini, Libra

Nearly Perfect Partners:


Aries, Sagittarius

Not Your Destiny:

Taurus, Scorpio

He can't stop laughing after this.

Me: dah i dah selete
Me: delete*
Nadhir: selete! mcm selet!
Me: kk dah cukop
Nadhir: u tadi gi toilet u selet ehhhh... sbabtu tu word came out
Nadhir: hahahahaha!

-_____________________-"

Me: hehe okok. i go sleep spoon
Nadhir: spoon!
Me: DAHDAH
Nadhir: u sleep spoon
me: -.-

Haiyaaaa. Always very selenge.


Am back from camp. One word, awesome-ness. Duhh, of course its awesome! SHL camp what. Where its all the sporty, spontaneous, fun people are in. Best. But really, its awesome. Tell me, where can you find a camp that is so free and easy? Can use handphone, can go smoke2 (but of course I don't), play games all day? This is SHL people. HAHA. Ok I better shut up.

As I've said, we played games all day. Yes, only games. But its not for us to have fun, we have to learn how to play it thats the why. But oh well, we still had fun. And with the "people" who actually makes the camp more fun. Who is the "people"? Oh, the two "interesting" people; never fails to make us laugh the whole day. How interesting? You should see it for yourself. Unexplainable. You will laugh till you can't laugh anymore.

And of course some interesting things happen. Like Hanisah sleepwalking, the massive search, the dance, the cheers and many many more. Its too much to explain in detailed.

This year, SHL gonna win! We worked hard on this. Despite the fact that we have the smallest amount of students in our course, we manage to get the second place for fop last year with the SAS, the biggest team leading up. But that's okay. This year, we will win the biggest team. Yeah, thats the spirit. K, I sound so semangat like that.

I miss my fop last year ): Very gerek.

And I want camp like this everyday. Can anot? :p






1. Supposingly, Im accompanying my sister to school for her cca. But because of that stupid security guard, I cannot stay long. Only security guard, want to act big already. Very irritating. Then, I felt lost because I don't know where to head off actually. Unfortunately for me, Fatin and laro can't make it. But then, thanks to my sweetheart girlfriend nadIAH a.k.a SITI(HAHAHA), she's the saviour of my day. Spent the day with her at her house with the people. Then, head off to court for their netball training.

2. The sun was being extremely mean today. Was scorching hot we can have barbeque at the pavement. But then, nearby the court.. Oh well, let's just left this unsaid. But truly thankful to Nad for cheering me up. And her friends too for always asking how am I feeling. (: Awww, so shuweet. It was pretty much embarrasing to _____ infront of them since its my first time meeting them. And I feel so kental for _____. Like hello, me and ____ does not connect well. And I clearly remember this is not once I actually ____ infront of Nad, right Nad? Haiyaaaa. Why I so kental.

3. Indeed, I am terribly upset.

4. My dad, very superb. Everyday, one box of ciggarettes. -.-

me: Wahh, ayah ni hari2 beli rokok aje. -.-
mama: Sini kan murah.
me: Abeh, lau murah pon. tkyah beli hari2 ape. satu kotak, satu hari?! (This time I irritated already)
mama: Eh, dah bagos tu satu kotak. Dulu ayah dua kotak ah satu hari. Eh kau tak beli untuk Nadhir. Murah tau sini.
me: Dah sudah. Jangan nak macam2.
mama: Abeh nadhir satu hari brape kotak?
me: Dian suroh dier isap 3 batang satu hari.
*Ayah enter in the car*
mama: Hah, ade orang mengamok abang satu hari satu kotak. Dier cakap isap 3 batang satu hari cukop. Dulu, semangat nk quit. Cakap kasi satu bulan conferm boleh la haper la. Ni dah start heavy balek.
Ayah: Stress stress.

-.- Haiyaaaa.

5. Videocall with Izzaaaaaah. K I miss her very the muchies.

6. I've yet to pack my stuff. -.- Hello camp!

7.Dear camp, please make me a happy kid.

8. Im trying my very best to forget whatever happen especially the hurtful words.


I really don't know how am I supposed to react actually. I thought I did enough to satisfy the people in my surroundings. I guess they expect more from me. Im just so speechless at this moment. I don't how to explain it. Haiz.



"
If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.


You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible. "













So how's yesterday at work? HAHAHA! King of boredom deng. From 11am till I end work at 6, guess how many customer. Pathetic 2 customer siaaaaa. One around lunch time and another one at 5+. Me, Emily and Wenn jet had a time of our life enjoying the food there. But we got sick of the cafe's food, so Emily treat us Sari Indo food. Nice! :D

Today, I accompanied my one and only, none other than Nadhir Osman. There's a silat friendly match between rp and sp which was held in our school. He took part in it so I wanna give my support la kan. Everybody come on and say "AWWWW SO SHUWEEEET!". Hehe. K, I know I sweet. :p

Oh well, unfortunately it doesn't go well for him. He didn't manage to continue the match because the opponent kick his stomach or somewhere below or somewhere above there instead of the vest. So yeah, the pain. wooh. Understoodable k. But he fought good. Real good. And not because Im his girlfriend the reason I said this. But honestly, he is. Even others agreed and seem to praise him.

See b, you are a good fighter. Doesn't mean you lose, you're not. And doesn't mean when one is a good fighter, it means they will win every time. And doesn't mean they win, they are a good fighter. Sometimes they learn from the experience they lose and be better for the next match. That's what we called a fighter. In silat its not about winning, its about the techniques you do. You have the skills, you know the techniques. See, you are a fighter. A good one, I must say. Yes, its very upsetting when we lose. But don't be discouraged k b. You still have another match coming up. Have a positive mindset that you can win this time. (: Oh well, no matter what, you are MY most awesome fighter k baby. Hees.

Watching the match just now brings back my olden days. I still remember the tough training and stuff. And most of all, it brings back the memories of me participating the PSK. Ahh, the pressure at that moment. Sadly, I only manage to get to semi final. I still have a vivid visions on the day I lost my game. Not trying to brag or anything, but I was very confident I could win when I score alot of points during my first round and half of second round. But then, my stamina can't seem to hold on that I begin to lose point and my opponent gain more. Very upsetting. But oh well, nothing to care about now that Im not in silat anymore. :D





Nice right, I knowwwwww. Humph. Nk.. )':


Another boring day at workplace. Wahh, today worse then yesterday. There's no customer till at around 5+. HAHA. So overall, I only "worked" for almost an hour only but I get 7 hour pay. Best eh.

So what I did today? NOTHING. As usual, me and meira cook whatever is in the fridge/freezer. K, let me tell you what I eat. Spaghetti -> drumlets -> ice cream -> choc + cookies n cream milkshake -> ice cream -> crepe with brownies and choc fudge -> peach tea -> strawberry smoothie. MANE TAK BONCET!

Then, when Im not eating, I sleep. Best.



Yesterday work was bored. Very bored. I get my pay for sitting, eating, talking on the phone and




















The sense of relieved when I can finally use internet. Ahhh, sensuality. After 2 days of not touching my laptop and not communicating with my baby for 2 days is an agony to me. My aunt and uncle stayed with us for 2 nights which somehow lessen my boredom, thank Allah. Heh! But the irritating part is all of them keep disturbing me. They caught me daydreaming often and they tend to sing some jiwang song. -.- Yes, I miss my boyfriend, thats the why. And they make me miss him more when they keep mentioning him. Confirm he tersedak-sedak pat spore eh. HAHA.

This is my third day staying in complete different environment. And so far, Im not liking it. Maybe Im not used to it thats the why. Oh well, lets give it a week or so and see if anything could possibly make me fall in love with this place. Lets look on the bright side. Ya right -.- The only bright thing I can see is the sun in a broad daylight. Pfft.

I still can't believe Im actually here. -.-

K, I am lazy to type long long about my place here. But but but, halamaaaak, the guys here hot hot heat ah. :p Olang singgaporrr lehhhhh. Ish, hotness giler. But as izzah said, no no no. HAHAHA. My Nadhir Osman tetap my hot hot heat sweetheart. Kn syg kn? Sayaaaaang u!

I wanna thank many many to my babylerp. He is such a shweetheart. Tankies for helping me angkat2 barang when I pindah that time. Even though you're tired and sleepy, yet you still come and help us. Awww, shweetness much. And sorry banyak2 if my aunty ke my abang sedare macam irritating much. Haha! Oh well, you have to get used to it aites dear. :D And I miss you lots lots. This tuesday we meet okaaaaay. Weee, lurp you veli the muchies. ♥



No relationship is perfect, ever. 
There are always some ways you have to bend, 
to compromise, to give something up 
in order to gain something greater. 
The love we have for each other is bigger 
than these small differences. 
And that’s the key. It’s like a big pie chart, 
and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece.
 Love can make up for a lot.









That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.

— Drew Barrymore




It's past one nearly two am. I've promised my boyfriend that Im gonna sleep once we hung up which was minutes ago. But oh well, I can't seem to put my hands off my laptop. Heh, should have listened to him when he asked me to off it before we hung up. Sorry dear, I broke my promise. But I syg u okaaaay. So please don't say "yelaa, mane nk dgr ckp i.. tk syg i lagi".. -.-

The reason Im blogging at this hour is because I am still not sleepy and I am bored. Also, something is niggling my mind at this moment. I don't know what is bugging me actually. My mind is all tangled up. There's so many things to think about and I caught myself in disarray.

Firstly, this would be the last week Im staying in my homeland. Suddenly I felt so woeful leaving this country. I know Im not leaving that far; just the other side of the sea. But still, leaving my homeland that I've spent for 18 years of my life is such a poignance. I know I've always been excited leaving this country for holidays but I can't force myself to imagine that Im leaving for holidays this time. Because Im definitely not. Such an allay that Im not leaving forever. Just a couple of years. And I would like that to be true or else..hmm, maybe I would earn money and stay here all by myself? Oohhh, yes Im gonna do that for all Im sure.

Secondly, staying at malaysia means lack of freedom. Even if I do have freedom, what can I possibly do there? With NO friends, not familiar with the road directory and so forth, it would be just like living in.. Hmm.. I would not like to picture how awful its gonna be. And of course, I can't meet my one and only boyfriend. )': Not only do I pity myself, but I sympathise him too. Could he hold on to this relationship knowing that his girlfriend is not there for him through his good and bad times? But whatever the future brings, I have faith in him. I know we're strong enough to face this. InsyaAllah. (:

Lastly, Im vexed with my non perpetual feelings. One minute Im fine, the next Im not. Just a small matter can make my feelings change drastically. And it got me so worked up and doubting myself. I just wished that I could start afresh and forget the past. Because the past has always been the ones that keep haunting me. Hmm.. Not to worry dear, this has got nothing to do with my feelings towards you. (:

And so, all this thinkings, worryings and doubtings combined together and you'll get a haywired mind. -.- That's exactly the state of my mind right now. But I'll try as might to be happy and look on the bright side. :D Not to worry everyone.

Oh, wait. This last paragraph here is for NADIAH DIYANA. Minah, I miss your laughter. I miss your hug. I miss your funny joke. I miss your lame joke. I miss your care. I miss your concern. I miss your scolding. I miss your advice. I miss your sweetness. I miss your love. I miss your "awak, kite". I miss our talkings. I miss our fun. I miss our silence. I miss our moments. I miss you being my scandal. I miss you being my girlfriend. I miss you being my minah. I miss you being you. Lastly, I miss you deeply from my heart. Meet me soon awak! :D

Of course not forgotten a special part for my sweetheart. Things will not be easier for us in the future. Yes, we have talk about it and we promised we're gonna endure it. I trust you. I have faith in you. Promise me few things? Don't ever ever feel glum when Im gone. Promise me, you'll live as how you are now. Promise me there will always be a smile outlining your face. Promise me there will always be your laughter echoing your surroundings. Promise me that even when Im not by your side, Im still in your heart. Promise me that you'll always lock my flying kisses and tuck it safely in your heart. Promise me that you'll never turn to another directions and leave me alone. Promise me that you will always love me. Lastly, promise me that you'll keep these promises. ♥