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Well hello. (:
Enjoy, cheerios!

Hello, my name is Dian Farhana Friends call me Dian. Colleagues/teachers/faci/strangers prefer calling me Farhana.
I don’t why, they just do. -.-
For me? I’m fine with both, really. (:
I have a lot of nicknames; some are too embarrassing to state down.

Well, I’m officially legal as of 8 February 1992. Nothing to brag off actually.
Yes, it sure sounds sexciting and I do anticipate for this special day.
But once it’s over, it’s over. My life goes on, still the same every single day. -.-
I’m taking a diploma in RP majoring in Sports and Leisure management.
This may not be my first choice but still, I am really glad I get into this course.
I shall live my hopes on seeing my one and only idol, Usain Bolt.
Yes, I’m a big fan of him because I go “wow” when I see him runs and I go “oooh~” when he wins. :p
Oh well, it was just a wish. I hope it would come true though. :D USAIN BOLT, please visit Singapore, pretty please with millions cherries on tops.

One word, nine letters to describe myself.
I’m different; metaphorically though.
I’m different in a way that I have my own mindset and my thoughts, my belief; my thinking is different from others.
I guess I belong to the minority groups that think the same way as I do.

I think I am anti-social.
Honestly, I’m not a person who mingles with strangers and hit off with them like polaroid instantly.
I am quiet when I’m alone. But once I’m with a bunch of crazy friends around me, be prepared to see me being crazier than them.
I don’t like noisy places or worse, crowded places.
I just have this feeling that everyone is staring at me and that is scary.
I pity my parents most of the time because they are usually pressured whenever we are dining out.

I am born to be stubborn. That’s something you have to bear with me.
I want things to go my way. I am extremely determined to achieve what I want and it must happen.
I am very demanding. Try go against me, I’ll give you a triple worse attitude. Wanna give it a try?
I am egoistic, that I can’t deny. I always wanted to win. But sometimes (rarely). I would relent; that’s when you guys are lucky though.

I don’t like people who use profanities.
I can’t stand people saying it even though it’s once in a while.
But sometimes, I do say it too. :p But I’ll regret and smack my mouth.
I rarely feel angry. I guess that’s the only positive thing I am proud of myself.
But once I do, I’ll go extremely superbly quiet.
I guess I’ve learnt it since I was small to always keep my mouth shut.
That’s why it’s hard for me to console people who are angry with me.
Oh, but at the same time I am a rebel person too. Contradicting, I know.
But I would only rebel when things doesn’t go my way.
I rebel in my quiet way. I may be quiet when I am angry but I rebel at the same time. Get it?
I’m patient. Patience with limits. Be friends with me and you‘ll know how high my patience is.

Im not perfect.
And there’s still more weakness in me which I’ve yet to reveal.
Despite all these imperfections, I have a fair share of my strength in myself.
But that is for you guys to judge me. Now enough about myself.

Meet my one and only boyfriend, Nadhir Osman.
♥ My one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.♥

22.02.2010, that’s the special date. And it is special to us somehow in terms of the numeric terms.

As cliché as it may sound, but he completes my life.
He’s my best friend, my best companion, my best advisor, my best everything.
He may not be the most perfect guy in every girl’s eye, but he is to me.
His imperfections are perfect enough to be my better half.

Our relationship may not be as those like in fairytales.
We live in a place called reality.
We’ve had our share of fights and arguments but we never let them get us down.

How much I love him, why do I love him..it’s better left unsaid.

Just so all of you know, HE knows, that I love him truly; always and forever, eternity and beyond.♥

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And so its finally over. Things that I feared almost every night of my life, done and over. Im sure he's happy with the decision.

Apparently, someone has been so sensitive. A person who knows me very well would know if I was joking or not. A friend was feeling2 nak practice to become a good husband. And he happens to tell me that when he was doing my hair. So, as a JOKE, I told him Im like the wife. Is that even wrong? And so what if I posted it in FB? EVERYONE knows who is my boyfriend. EVERYONE knows that whatever I said was a joke. Because THEY know me and him are friends, close friends.

The next thing, I thought, I actually thought we have solved the matter. Someone says its never too late to change. And just after saying that, someone did the same thing again. Well, if I were a boy, I would have definitely cancelled things to prove to the girl my promises. And no, it does not happen to me.

I don't go looking for other guys for happiness. It just happens that I got more guy friends. And whenever Im sad, they are there to cheer me up. Am I in the wrong position now? And no, its not only guys. But there are girls too.

If I were not sincere to love you, I would have long leave you behind and went for other guys. My guy friends are better at treating me then you are. But did I? No, I did not. I stayed. And now its all about me not being sincerely in love with you.

I treat you as last priority? Well, yeah you're right i guess. Me not going to school in the morning with friends. Me not having lunch with friends. Me not spending time after school with friends. And yes, after all this, you are still the last priority. And I wonder where do my friends stand then? What is after last?

If I treat my guy friends more important than you, explain to me, why when my status changed to 'single', all of them msn-ed with me asking how i am, cheer me up and stuff but not a slightest bit did anyone tried to take advantage of that. Neither do they try to flirt nor do they try to replace you. Well, of course, they are nothing more than a friend!

I did not try solving things out whenever we are in a fight. Okay fine, I'll take this blame. But all the time I did this? Really? I don't think so. I think I did have done something in this SOME times.

Oh well, I think its useless explaining all this since all is over. But here's the thing. Where has that one guy who used to say we shall stay strong no matter what happens? Where has that one guy who has faith in us and tell me that no matter how we are at the very worst, we are one? Seems like the one who is strong all along is the one who gave up on this first.

Im thankful for what you have done to me so far. I appreciate every little bit of it. I don't have to show it in words do i? Yes, it may seems like I appreciate others more. But God knows how exhilarate I am when you did something sweet to me. I can show my appreciative towards you in any ways, but with friends, I can only express it in words. And you are being so uptight about it? Maybe the way I showed it to you was not enough. Im sorry then.

I hope you would find that one girl who will make you happier than I did. You deserve better I must say. Jusyt one thing, to make her happy, treat her like as though she's the only girl in the world. Treat her as though she matter so much that you won't want to lose her. Treat her more special than a friend. Im sure you guys will last forever. (:

You're perfect to me in any ways. Just that sometimes I feel like as though I was no one. And we talked. We talked about this. Not even a slightest bit have I ever thought that it's gonna end up like this. Have I ever asked for this no matter how upset I am? All I asked for was to start all over again. This is how we compared the ones with faith with the ones who don't. And when I asked for it, we talked. But for this, have you?

You think Im happy? Obviously, you don't know me well enough. You broke my heart. You lost my trust and faith. But I know, you're happy. Its your choice, you made up your mind. And I know the people around you, your friends, your family, they are happy with this too.

Thank you for that first day when you entered my life, and gain back my trust and love when I was terribly heartbroken at that time. Thank you for ruining it all over again. Thank you for the love you once shared with me for the past 3 months. Thank you for the time you spend for me. Thank you for all the sweet things you've done for me. Thank you for being there for me for 154 days since the day we met. Thank you for making me the happiest girl on earth on 22 February. Thank you for making me the saddest girl in universe on 26 May. Thank you for making me smile everyday for that 154 days. Thank you for everything.

Mine will never fade till the time has come. I love you, always have, always will. (: