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Well hello. (:
Enjoy, cheerios!

Hello, my name is Dian Farhana Friends call me Dian. Colleagues/teachers/faci/strangers prefer calling me Farhana.
I don’t why, they just do. -.-
For me? I’m fine with both, really. (:
I have a lot of nicknames; some are too embarrassing to state down.

Well, I’m officially legal as of 8 February 1992. Nothing to brag off actually.
Yes, it sure sounds sexciting and I do anticipate for this special day.
But once it’s over, it’s over. My life goes on, still the same every single day. -.-
I’m taking a diploma in RP majoring in Sports and Leisure management.
This may not be my first choice but still, I am really glad I get into this course.
I shall live my hopes on seeing my one and only idol, Usain Bolt.
Yes, I’m a big fan of him because I go “wow” when I see him runs and I go “oooh~” when he wins. :p
Oh well, it was just a wish. I hope it would come true though. :D USAIN BOLT, please visit Singapore, pretty please with millions cherries on tops.

One word, nine letters to describe myself.
I’m different; metaphorically though.
I’m different in a way that I have my own mindset and my thoughts, my belief; my thinking is different from others.
I guess I belong to the minority groups that think the same way as I do.

I think I am anti-social.
Honestly, I’m not a person who mingles with strangers and hit off with them like polaroid instantly.
I am quiet when I’m alone. But once I’m with a bunch of crazy friends around me, be prepared to see me being crazier than them.
I don’t like noisy places or worse, crowded places.
I just have this feeling that everyone is staring at me and that is scary.
I pity my parents most of the time because they are usually pressured whenever we are dining out.

I am born to be stubborn. That’s something you have to bear with me.
I want things to go my way. I am extremely determined to achieve what I want and it must happen.
I am very demanding. Try go against me, I’ll give you a triple worse attitude. Wanna give it a try?
I am egoistic, that I can’t deny. I always wanted to win. But sometimes (rarely). I would relent; that’s when you guys are lucky though.

I don’t like people who use profanities.
I can’t stand people saying it even though it’s once in a while.
But sometimes, I do say it too. :p But I’ll regret and smack my mouth.
I rarely feel angry. I guess that’s the only positive thing I am proud of myself.
But once I do, I’ll go extremely superbly quiet.
I guess I’ve learnt it since I was small to always keep my mouth shut.
That’s why it’s hard for me to console people who are angry with me.
Oh, but at the same time I am a rebel person too. Contradicting, I know.
But I would only rebel when things doesn’t go my way.
I rebel in my quiet way. I may be quiet when I am angry but I rebel at the same time. Get it?
I’m patient. Patience with limits. Be friends with me and you‘ll know how high my patience is.

Im not perfect.
And there’s still more weakness in me which I’ve yet to reveal.
Despite all these imperfections, I have a fair share of my strength in myself.
But that is for you guys to judge me. Now enough about myself.

Meet my one and only boyfriend, Nadhir Osman.
♥ My one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.♥

22.02.2010, that’s the special date. And it is special to us somehow in terms of the numeric terms.

As cliché as it may sound, but he completes my life.
He’s my best friend, my best companion, my best advisor, my best everything.
He may not be the most perfect guy in every girl’s eye, but he is to me.
His imperfections are perfect enough to be my better half.

Our relationship may not be as those like in fairytales.
We live in a place called reality.
We’ve had our share of fights and arguments but we never let them get us down.

How much I love him, why do I love him..it’s better left unsaid.

Just so all of you know, HE knows, that I love him truly; always and forever, eternity and beyond.♥

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Manage to go Singapore and catch the Silat finals. Congrats to all who wins and never give up to those who didn't manage to clinch the gold medal. You guys did well. (:

I get to meet some familiar faces over there. Met Azhar, friend sister and Fithri! And also my opponent that I lost to when I was in PSK years ago. Fithri was a jury. Omgosh. Haha. And I miss her lots (: Great to see all the silat people. And Azhar didn't seem happy to meet me. I think I know why although I hope its not true. Hmm.

So after silat, they wanted to have lunch/dinner together. I wasn't really looking forward to it since I didn't know most of them. Well, of course I know their names and saw them couple of times. But we're nothing more than merely strangers.

But of course, boyf really seems to be looking forward for it and what can I say right. Although I did say I did not want to go, I have to right. And whats worse when I know the place was the place that I really hated. Simpang bedok. -.- I didn't know where it was till we reached the place and I can't possibly go home right.

Simpang bedok, even my parents didn't even dare to bring me there unless they want to see me throw tantrums. Well, I should make it clear to you guys that I HATE crowded places. I don't why but I just hate it. And when Im in that situation, you guys can expect my mood swing right away.

And I think, my friends should know that. Since I refused to walk in the middle of the canteen in school during peak hours, I was hesitant to walk in front of the canteen, I preferred eating at the corner. Didn't any of this make sense? And I think I stated clearly in my blog "About me" section. Haizzz.

And the most disappointing thing ever? Someone who knows me for half a year already didn't know this basic thing. Sorry for the bad attitude I've thrown to you and your friends.

Well, I can't really stand it and there it was, an opportunity for me to get out from there when he decided to go for a smoke. Told him I wanna go home and he sent me to the bus stop. And right there and then, he finally knows the reason.
The minute the bus came, he have a choice. And he chooses to be with them. Well, actually he have a choice to make the minute he knows my reason. But I can't see him doing anything except apologising. Well, okay then. (:

So yeah, I told you not to take the bus with me. I told you I wanna go home. But haha, the reason I want to go home is because I didn't want to be in the crowded places. Not because I didn't wanna spend time with you. You would have known that.

Well, this time, Im really utterly disappointed with you. Please do make a choice. Do you really need a girlfriend in your life?

I believed you have said that actions are more than words. Then, why each time you cheered me up is just through words? You apologised to me, you text me saying you love me. All the same each time we fight. But guess what? You failed the minute you left your bag on the chair and walk away once I boarded the bus.

Stop lying to yourself. Asked yourself. Do you really need a girlfriend in your life? You said you wanna spend time alone with me after eating. Then why do I not see you spending time with me after I left the table? Because you left your bag behind? Or because you have your friends there.

And guess what? I was damn hungry at that point of time. But I think only the people who knows me well enough would know that I wouldn't touch a single food in Simpang Bedok or rather, a crowded places. I lied. And you can't even catch the signs of me lying. You asked several times and that was it. That's it. You know what I always did when you refused to eat. I forced till you eat.

I don't expect any apologize from you. Not a word of it. What I need is an answer. A choice for you to make. Do you really need a girlfriend in your life?

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Tomorrow I need to accompany my mum to work just because she need to go work alone since dad can't send her. There's a class bbq but I don't think I'm gonna attend. Sorry guys! Now I shall plan what I'm gonna do. Urgh. Probably sat stoning under the block or library. -.- HAHA. K bye.